Walk With Me 1

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Nicki

It's chaotic. Bey goes into labor a day before she was originally due. I bring her to the hospital and now Robyn is 3 months early and Ariana is juggling her and Jazmine, who sits in the waiting room playing board games with Matthew.

The older man wanted to let Beyoncé give birth with privacy but he'll be the first guest we allow to be let in once India comes.

It's stressful, I've been going from room to room and to the waiting room checking on everyone.

Beyoncé just got the epidural and just sits through, calming down a bit.

"You beautiful."

"Shut the fuck up."

"She doesn't mean it, don't take it to heart." The nurse comes up behind me and whispers.

I knew this from Robyn but I did kind of need the reassurance. I give her a small smile. Robyn called me a faggot and said that her pain was 'my fault' but instantly changed when Jazmine was laid on her chest.

I rub her head a bit and press a kiss to her. I definitely plan to marry her after India is born. To have both of our girls present for the wedding would be perfect.

Beyoncé groans when another contraction hits hard.

We've been here for almost 7 hours and she's progressed quickly.

As a matter of fact, the nurse that gave me the words of encouragement calls the doctor's and they examine her cervix.

"She can't wait to be born because I already see eyes."

From then, every one of the hospital staff scrambles to get all the supplies. Having seen this before, I cling to Beyoncé and whisper sweet nothings into her ear. I'm really here for her and excited to meet our baby.

She looks up to me with watery eyes.

"It'll be okay, Bey. I'm right here."

"I'm scared and really hurting."

"It's gonna be quick. She's already climbing her way out basically. Plus they said on the ultrasound, she's a small baby."

Beyoncé shakes her head 'no'. I hate to break it to her but India is coming, whether she is prepped for the pain or not.

My heart beats quickly as she pushes the way they instruct her to. Beyoncé screams loud after every push and nearly breaks my arm as she twists it like a rag.

I start screaming in pain too.

I kid you not, 5 more pushes and she's out. Jazmine took almost 2 hours of pushing. India slid out, I guess.

The baby is out, but doesn't cry.

For a second, time stands still until they rest her on Beyoncé's chest and her eyes are fully open and she looks around. She's fine, but doesn't seem to want to cry. She looks disappointed already.

All of us in the room smile. Eventually they make her cry when they clean her up. She looks to be fine.

Beyoncé however goes limp before the placenta can even pass. Her heart rate slowing drastically.

Now the world really stands still. Am I going to lose her? I really don't want to.

Machines go off in a frenzy.

I'm pushed out of the way while doctors and nurses run to her side. The nurse in charge of the baby makes me follow her into the hospital nursery. However my mind is focused on Bey.

My heart races.

"Is it normal? Her passing out?" I ask the nurse for reassurance.

As she dresses the baby, in her little glass bassinet thing, she stops and looks at me.

"I can't tell you an answer, honey." She purses her lips. "We can have a moment for her if you'd like. If you pray."

I need any form of peace. I'm not even religious but I nod 'yes'. My eyes focused on the newborn that already looks so much like Beyoncé.

"Come here."

She moves my hand to be placed on my baby's stomach. The diaper and mittens and little bow hat is already on. I just need to hold her for some comfort.

The nurse sees that and nods a bit as she prays. India looks up at me seriously. Yup, just like Beyoncé.

I smile down at her.

The nurse's prayer really moving me a bit.

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It's a day later. Both babies are here. I'm right next door visiting Robyn. Zahir is in the PICU because of how early he is. Robyn is stable, but to me is bothered and unwell. After Bey gave birth I was at Robyn's side with Ariana as she gave birth. I mean there's a two hour difference between the two babies. Bey insisted I get to Robyn. Shawn missed the whole thing. I'm not shocked though but glad I'm here for Rob.

Ariana has Jazmine at home. Matthew is with Beyoncé, holding the baby and having their father, daughter, granddaughter moment.

I feed Robyn as she lays with her breasts out, pumping. She's gonna freeze it until Zahir can eat from her actual breast in a few weeks or months.

"You okay?"

She shrugs.

"Z is gone be okay." I insist.

Both babies are healthy and well thankfully.

I give her a fry.

"What is it then?"

There's a soft knock on the door.

"Come in." Robyn speaks up.

Shawn's head peeks out. I quickly move the gown up over Robyn's boobs and get ready to go back to Bey's. That man is not one I trust easily after that night.

"Hey." He greets.

We both greet him.

"They haven't tested him yet." Robyn says.

"I still wanted to come check on you." He brings flowers from behind his back. "Ariana sent me a picture of him and I knew that was my baby."

I set the to go box down next to the nightstand.

I'm walking out when Robyn stops me. "Tell Beyoncé I said hi and that I'm gonna go see her and the baby in a couple."

Shawn's face twists.

"Ight." I stare at him for a bit longer and just walk out.

I'm eager to hold my Babygirl and be with Bey right now.

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I'm thinking of a second book for this. Thoughts? Or should I just add some extra chapters with time jumps to the kids being teens?