Walk With Me 1

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Beyoncé

"Baba, you okay?"

Jazmine is awake and rubbing her eyes. I instantly feel worse.

"Baby, go back to bed."

"You not feelin' good?"

"It's okay, my star. Go back to bed, okay?"

"Okay, I love you."

"I love you too."

I'm not sure what to do. I haven't been feeling well for weeks. I'm off of work, so it hasn't impacted my schedule a lot but, Nicki has been getting worried too.

I'm slowly getting worried too because I NEVER get sick. I've always kept a strong immune system because of my upbringing and diet. Something must definitely be up.

I don't wanna concern Nicki or Jazmine any more. It's 6 something in the morning. I grab my phone and stand on the back porch.

I dial up an old friend's number.

"Hello."

"Hey, Julius."

"There you are pro-dancer." I can hear him chuckling in amusment through the phone.

"Where are you?"

"At my house."

"Be ready in 10 minutes."

"What's going on?"

"I need your help, seriously."

"Alright."

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Julius is standing at his driveway awkwardly in plaid pajama pants and a wife beater and some ugly sandals.

"Get in, Julius!" I roll the window down and he complies all scary.

"Well hello."

"Hey."

I zoom to the nearest pharmacy.

"What's going on?"

"I've been feeling a little off. Throwing up every morning, some bloating. Light headed every once in a while. I can't keep some foods down."

"Beyoncé, you're 28... this is a normal age to be getting pregnant."

"Which is why I'm getting some tests. But I don't wanna do it alone."

"Alright."

We park at a nearby pharmacy and I speed walk. Thankfully they're a 24-hour store. Julius trails slightly behind me.

"Move Julius!"

I grab all of the available tests.

"Where do I take them? I want my answers now!"

"Pay for them and use the bathroom, Beyoncé!"

And I do so. I feel my chest pounding hard as I take the bags to the bathroom with me. I take the first bag in a stall and Julius stands just outside.

I take a deep breath and start passing the ends of the tests as if it were a factory. I line the tests up from most recently taken all the way down, then I wipe myself and pull up my pants. I stare at the wall and see Julius' silhouette.

I just stay there probably longer than the three minutes instructed on the package.

It's scary to think about. As I sit here and time feels like it's dragging itself out.

"Well."

"I'm pregnant. Not a single one came out negative."

My chest pounds in excitement and slight anxiety. A baby with Nicki and Jazz gets to be a big sister. This is the best news ever.

I wanna tell her in a cute sentimental way.

I hug Julius because he's the nearest person to me and he squeezes me firmly. I can't help the tears that fall down my face.

"Happy for you, Bey. So happy."

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Surprise!

Also it's drama from here on out so buckle up.