𝐂𝐡𝐞𝐫 - 𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬 (𝐀 𝐂𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐢𝐨𝐩𝐢𝐜 𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧)

1970𝐬, 𝐞𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐡 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭

⚠️ 🅃🅁🄸🄶🄶🄴🅁🅆🄰🅁🄽🄸🄽🄶: 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐝𝐫𝐮𝐠 𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧⚠️

Meanwhile the pregnancy with Elijah I don't have problems so that I can enjoy that. After the birth from Elijah I have for the first time the feeling, that we are really wife and husband. Like a real married couple. I like that feeling but I always think why we don't get that earlier? Was it my fault? Or was it Greggs fault because of the drugs? I don't know that. But we can enjoy that. The only problem is that Gregg isn't a nice father. He can't change diaper or other important things. I show him that but it's difficult for him. He try that and even he try that I'm happy about it.
We sit on the sofa and I have Elijah on my arms. He is sleeping peaceful and I love that his face looks like Greggs. Like a double Gregg. I lie my head on his shoulder and look at him

"Honey? I love you..."

I look to him cute and he looks to me like a sweet dog and friendly, then he smiles

"I love you too baby..."

He kisses me short. I take the remote controller and makes the TV a bit quieter.

"I...recognize something..."

For few seconds I'm silent because I don't know how should I say that

"I'm feeling finally that we are married couple....like wife and husband...and I'm happy that I feel like that now. Do you promise me that you stay like this now? I love you so much how you are now. Even when you still don't know how to make a diaper..."

We both chuckles

"But I love you and I don't want that this change now..."

Gregg listen to me what I appreciate so much.

"I promise babe...I'll never dissapointed you again..."

These words are always in my head now. Til the one day as Elijah is one year old. I trust him til this day. I was short away to talk with a producer. Me and Gregg recording a new CD "Allman and Woman." Soon is the day from the CD publish and we want that is organised.

I let Elijah to Gregg and open the door without to think what could be happen bad. But suddenly I stand like a stone on the floor, the door is still open and I see on the floor many alcohol bottles, wet spots on the floor and it seems that Gregg pukes on the floor. I get panic that he drinks again and that he did something to Elijah

"Gregg!!!"

I scream

"Gregg!!!"

I scream again and search him. But immediately I found him sitting on the floor. He leans his back on the wall and I see that he holds an alcohol bottle on his hand. And how supposed: his t shirt is full with puke. But why? Why did he drinking again?
But I must run to Elijah so I run upstairs to the stairs. Luckily that Chasity is with Sonny so that she don't have to see that disaster. I'm glad....Elijah is still sleeping and he seems fine. But now I walk downstairs to Gregg and kneels down to him. Then I clap with my one hand on his cheek

"Gregg! Gregg c,mon wake up."

Gregg opens his eyes and makes a grumble

"Gregg...have you been drinking?"

I ask dissapointed and I just want cry. He break my promise and that's hurt me. Gregg answers but he slurps:

"Mmmhhm..not so much...".

He tries to stand up but falls sometimes down so that I must help him. In the meantime are falling many alcohol bottles from his lap on the floor so that there is a loud sound. Gregg wants drinks again but I take the bottle away

"Stop with that!!!"

Gregg looks at me confused

"Gimme! Gimme!!"

"NOOOO!"

I'm really mad at moment so I must scream

"WE GO IN THE HOSPITAL NOW OR GO ALONE THERE! I MUST PAY ATTENTION OF ELIJAH!!"

So I did this. I call the ambulance and Gregg will drives to the hospital. I don't drive with him. I'm mad at moment and I need to realised that he did this really. Later I got the message that he is fine and I can visit him tomorrow. But at midnight I'm only crying and I feel like a bad wife. Madness and sadness is mixing and I can't understand his choice.
At the next day I visit him and I'm still angry. I come in his room and I only looking at him serious with crossing arms as he greeted me

"What was that? Yesterday? Are you serious???"

I ask him that angry. Gregg sighs and I wait for an answer

"Answer me that please!! You promise me something!"

I make a handgesture and in my eyes are already tears

"Something can happened to Elijah!"

Gregg claps his hands short on his legs

"I was overwhelmed okay??? He can't sleep and I freak out so that I must drinking alcohol again!"

"Overwhelming????"

I can't believe that I heard that

"And why do you not call me??? Are your drugs shits more important than me!?"

I make my hands on my chest. My voice is broken. Gregg is already annoyed from that all

"How should I call you when you are in the studio???"

I chuckle but because of unbelievablness.

"I can't understand you Gregg.. really.. there is a goddam telephone!...do you saw how our house looks like???"

A tear rolls over my cheeks.

"I tidy that up for you! Your bottles! Your puke! Everything!"

Gregg whispers then

"I'm so sorry Cher...."

I shake my head and go out so that the door bangs really loud.
In the next month is our CD published and its a big success but not in our marriage. One year later I decide to divorce from him but he still don't know it....