Little Secrets

11

Howard told me to rest but Steve and I went to the bar to celebrate getting everyone, most of everyone out. I didn't want to celebrate but Steve told I had to. For him.

But he didn't save Annie, for me, for Howard, for the world...

But my friends are happy to be alive which makes me happy. They realise that I'm on edge and they know why, however I want to be okay because I don't want to ruin Steve's spotlight.

"Steve you honestly want me to go back in?" They guys ask. I listen in because he want to ask me. He walks back to me.

"See I told you" I state. He rolls his eyes. "They're all idiots." He sighs look at me. "How about you, you ready to follow Captain America into the jaws of death"

He's so excited about getting to lead. I guess it's what he always wanted. To be a leader, to fight.

"Hell no. That little kid from Brooklyn was too dumb not to run away from a fight." I scoff and look at him. "I'm following him..."

Tears slightly brim my eyes as pressure build up inside me again. I drink away my pain.

"You're keeping the outfit though?" I chuckle. He sighs and looks at me, then to the poster of him. "You know what, it's growing on me"

"You never used to grow" I sighed taking another swing at the glass.

Men stop singing and chanting so Steve and I turn, we see Agent Carter wearing a red dress. "Captain" she states.

"Agent Carter" He replies.

Yes hello I'm here too.

"Ma'am" I state. She smiles. But goes back to Steve.

"Howard has some equipment for you to try out. Tomorrow morning" She explains.

"Sounds good" he nods.

She looks towards me, I look down slightly then to Steve.

That's when I knew he was going to choose her over me.

"I see you're putting your men for duty" she sighs. He nods.

"You don't like music?" I ask. But she doesn't look my way. "I do actually. Maybe after this is all over, I might go dancing"

"Then what are you both waiting for?" Steve asks.

"The right partner" she states.

I instantly walk away. "Buck- I didn't- I'm sorry." He runs after me.

My tears release and I stand outside as it rains. "Buck..." he looks at me sadly.

"You made me leave her!" I snap. "I loved her! And I'm never going to see her again! She's dead. I may as well be as well"

There's a hard lump in my throat. "Buck I'm sorry. I didn't have a choice" he rubs his arm down my shoulder and I sob into his chest.

"I just want everything to be okay. I want her"

Howard's POV:

I told Bucky to go and rest, he's not okay. I don't want to blame Steve but he saved Bucks life. If they had gone back, they wouldn't have made it as the guy already had her.

But I'm never going to see my sister again. My tears flow down my face as I lean against the table. What am I going to do?

Steve arrives to my lab with a very angry Peggy. What did he do?

After a while we begin looking at my weaponry. "Fondue is just, chocolate and cheese and stuff" I remind him. He looks at me blank.

I don't even realise that a tear leaves my eye. "Howard?" He asks.

"Why...why did you leave her..." I sob. "Howard. I was just trying... there was no time... I couldn't risk it. I had Bucky. I couldn't lose them both. Look I'm sorry." He explains.

I wipe my tears and he doesn't even shed one. He grabs something. "What about this one?" He asks. "That's still- that's the rarest metal on earth, I can't-" he ignores me as Peggy walks in.

"What do you think?" He asks.

He's becoming an ass.

She grabs a gun and aims it at him. Out of instinct I duck. Shots are fired and Steve blocks them. As she puts the gun down I look up at Steve. He's scared as he lowers the shield. "Yes I think it works." She smiles sarcastically then walks away.

I think she's pissed about him kissing another woman and the fact that he left Annie.

"I-I got a few ideas about the uniform" he shivers, passing me a note. "You got it pal" I don't move, we just stand at look at Peggy.

What the fuck just happened?