Food

Food, one of the things you need to survive

I watch others enjoy eating, do it like it's nothing

I wonder what it's like, it's easier to eat now

It's still not fun, it doesn't come natural to me

Forcing food down my throat, disgusted

Taste is the only reason I eat, I won't eat if I don't enjoy it

But it's hard when you barely enjoy it, halfway through it's no longer good

Gagging trying to get it down, wanting to be better

Everyday wishing for it to be easier, wanting a normal relationship

Watching the effects of not eating, scaring my friends & family

I've been sick since I was a child, no relationship with food

Food isn't my friend, it's gross

Wanting to gain weight, not wanting to eat

Survival is why I try, survival is also why I avoid it

Control, who else can control what I eat?

I've always been the one that doesn't eat, who am I if I do eat?

If I change, who am I?

Being sick is who I am, being better is who I want to be

Change is hard, How do I fix something that's always been broken?