Living in the Past

Chapter 11

*Time Skip*

Esteban's POV

Everyone was finishing up dinner, luckily no one had mentioned what happened, probably since Isabel was there, but I hoped that it would stay that way. After a while Elena spoke up.

"Isa, Abuela I want to show you something, come on" Elena said giving a weird look to Abuelo and Abuela. 

"Oh ok, what do you wanna show us." Isabel asked

"I'll tell you as we go come on" Elena said and dragged Abuela and Isa with her, out of the dining hall. 

I also stood up and started to go to my room. "Well, I..." I started saying but abuelo cut me off. 

"Come on Esteban, it's a beautiful night, let's go for a walk." Abuelo said

"At this time, are you sure?" I replied. I didn't want to go at all, I know he will probably bring up yesterday. But, I also knew if I didn't go, abuelo would get even more suspicious, and wouldn't let this incident go. 

"Yes, come on, it'll be fun, just like old times. he said. 

'Just like old times, I have been hearing that a lot haven't I. But, the truth is nothing can ever be like 'old times' ever again, because I went ahead and ruined it all. '

"Ok, let's go" I said. 

We both went out in the garden and strolled, neither one of us saying anything. It was a beautiful night though, the sky was filled with stars, and the moon shone bright. After walking for a while, Abuelo went and sat on a bench. I followed him, and sat down as well. 

"You know Esteban, me and your Abuela were just talking about you when you were young. How you always acted tough, and pretended that you didn't care, but you know what the truth was?" Abuelo asked

"What?" I said

"You were probably the one that cared the most about everyone, I guess you just didn't know how to show it. You were also the biggest troublemaker, I remember so many times you would get in a fight at school, or miss curfew. You always had a thing for getting in trouble." He chuckled a bit. "Though, we were always a little tough on you, all of us. Me, your abuela, Raul and Lucia. I guess, it was probably because you had so much potential, and we wanted to help you reach your full potential. And, you did, you have grown to become an amazing man." He said and looked at me and smiled. He had this weird far off look in his eyes. 

"I remember whenever you were hurt, you will hide it so none of us will find out. You have no idea how much times you scared the life out of us  because you hid a big injury from us. I remember this one time you got in a fight at school, and you got hit really badly on your head. You came home and hid in the room all afternoon. We all thought you were out with Victor, but then we saw him in halls, and he told us what happened. Everyone was so worried. We went to your room to look for you, and when we found you, you were on the verge of collapsing. You had tried to stop the bleeding, and had failed miserably. We were all so scared, we were going to lose you. It was touch and go for a while. But luckily, you were saved. You have no idea how relieved we were when we found out you were okay. Not to mention angry, especially your abuela, and tia. I don't know if you remember but you got a 4 hour lecture from all of us, after we knew you were going to make a full recovery." abuelo said

"I do remember it was awful, I actually pretended to fall asleep so you guys would stop the lecture, luckily you guys bought it. I chuckled fondly at the memory. 

"Do you remember what was the main thing we told you that day?" he asked

"ya, that if I am ever hurting, I shouldn't hide it and tell you guys." I replied, worried of the direction this talk was taking

"That is still true till this date, and not only for when you are physically hurt, you can come talk to us even if you are feeling sad, ok?" he said

"I know" I replied. 

He gave me a sad smile, and put his hand on my cheek, and said "Good, and don't you forget it." 

I smiled back at him, and he relaxed back in the bench. I knew what he was implying, but, there was nothing to say, so I just kept quiet. We stayed like that for some time, he was looking my way every few minutes, I think hoping I would say something. After sometime, we both went back inside to go to sleep since it was getting so late. I was really tired, and could sleep for hours, and hours, and just wanted to forget the fact that they saw me when I was drunk, and completely out of it. So i laid back in my bed, and hoped that I would have a dreamless sleep. Cause, there is nothing like a dream in my life anymore, they are all just nightmares. 

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