dirty bradstreet

never a phase (or just the hormones)

this is a song i wrote about my first girl crush after i figured out i was bisexual. enjoy.
i'm standing in the parking lot at the movies. we'd just seen doctor strange with our friends. she was 18 and i was just a year older thinking i was losing my mind because i wanted to kiss my ex boyfriend's best friend.
but now i'm 24 still living at home, she's 23, the same, and in college and i still feel the same way.
i guess i should've known then what i know now, from the way my heart was pounding and my mind zoned out 'til she spoke to me. she asked "what are you doing?" i shook my head and i said nothing, but that was a lie. turns out i was lying to myself and in denial back then.
the truth is it was never a phase or just the hormones, i'm bisexual. i don't wanna hide it from myself or the world anymore, i'm taking off the mask and i'm gonna be me from here on out.
i hope that's okay and you won't hate me for it, but if you choose to walk away please for the sake of the universe don't ever say it was me.