dirty bradstreet

one night and a meaningless dance

my love back 

then I didn't realize 

the two of us were 

gonna last as 

long as we did 

I thought when 

I asked you to

dance with me 

it would be just 

that one night 

and a meaningless 

dance but no still

two years later

you're the 

only one I can 

think of being

with romantically

sexually or non-sexually

for the rest of 

my God-given or 

hell-born life and

furthermore you

are the soul root

and the very 

center down 

to the core of 

my inspiration

linked to any 

poetry I've written

that's worth the 

reading even after

it hath been read

a thousand times 

my age and the 

pages of the 

notebook are 

worn and old

and I am dead 

and buried 

in the ground

anything written 

before I met you 

in my opinion ought 

to be thrown into 

the pit of despair

and burned until

it is no more 

as if it never

did exist on this 

earth in the first

place but if the opportunity 

did come that I was 

able to destroy them 

as I wish they were 

to be never would I 

have the heart nor 

the mindset to destroy 

them for when I die 

that's the only real

meaningful thing they'll 

have left of me

and if it's discovered

I expect it will be 

read at my funeral

and if I were to destroy 

them or hide them 

away where no one 

could find them

they would never know

the truth of how I

really felt and my 

words would never 

make it into the world