The Jock

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      i know i said i was going to continue this by writing little short stories but i just kinda don't have the inspiration. if you have seen my other book you'll see that i post a bit more frequently. i just don't have the motivation to continue a series i wrote when i was really young bc 1 it's very exaggerated 2 there are so many plot holes 3 i wrote things that i regret. my short story book is something that i've become really happy to write. i'm writing a new chapter nearly every day because i don't have to stick to story nor a character. i don't have to worry too much about background or about plots. i just need to have one plot , touch a little bit on the background (or not at all) and i can just write about any character i wish.

      my other book rarely gets any views , but i feel happy writing chapters everytime. a plot easily comes to mind , whereas in this book i have a chapter titled "i know i love you" and that it. i haven't been able to write anything. i started trying to write it in june , and it's now the start of october.

i really wanted to continue this story because of how ridiculous it is , i thought maybe since so many people were seeing it maybe it would make them happy or something. but i just don't have the motivation to continue this book.

maybe i'll add tom shorts to my short story book , but i just can't stick to one person and a specific plot. i barely remember what happened , when someone comments i don't even wanna look at it cause i know it's something that wasn't very smart of me to write.

during my time of writing , i realized , i tend to barely touch on important events. so i'm trying to add description into my writing. i really like how some of my favorite writers describe a scenery which is what i'm trying to do. i'm attempting to widen my vocabulary range , i'm watching anime movies (which contain a lot of description) like a silent voice , your name , and the corner of the world and even your words bubble up like soda pop , to help me imagine a scenery. they help me see what a seriously emotional scene looks like especially a silent voice , i wrote a short on attempted su!cide and now i want to improve. i want my readers to dive into the characters mind.

in a silent voice , i like how (spoilers ) nishimiya's su!cide attempt is drawn out. from the curtains to the fireworks and then back to ishido attempting to save her. and when he grabs on to her hand , i love how we see what's going on in his mind. we hear all his promises as long as he can save the girl in front of him. then in the bridge scene i love how ishida describes every character perfectly but without making it seem too bluntly. they argue and ishida tells them to shut up before summarizing every character. how ueno always tends to assume things , how kawai only adores herself , how sahara ran from her troubles , how nagatsaku doesn't really know ishida but tries to be on his side. and how mashibasa is only an outside trying to call ishida's words harsh.

then this is the moment that nishimiya begins (well when the audience sees) to hate herself. all of ishida's friends walking away because she wasn't good at communicating because she couldn't hear. and how much she truly hates herself. she caused multiple friendships to break apart. while ishida believes it was all his fault. if he hadn't bullied nishimiya everything would be fine. if he hadn't spoken to nishimiya , if he hadn't pulled out her hearing aids , if he hadn't even cared , nobody would be in this situation. one of the characters that i really love/hate because of how their character is developed is kawai , everyone hate ueno , but kawai is truly more terrible. she played victim , when ishida told everyone that kawai would also bully nishimiya and speak behind her back , she played victim , she cried. and i hate her so much that i love her character. i love how they made the audience focus on how bad ueno is , that we forgot how bad of a person kawai is. i love that. and yuzuru i love her character. i love how yuzuru is more focused on making nishimiya feel like she's apart of the world , that yuzuru forgets that she herself isn't apart of the world. ishida's character development is so gold. he goes from a bully that the audience doesn't feel bad for him at all , to being bullied where you want to feel bad but he was a bully himself. then the part you truly realize he's changed and deserves redemption is nishimiya's su!cide attempt. he saved the girl that truly hated herself for ruining friendships. she hated herself so much that she believed it would be better if she left the world.

that's when he gets redemption , when instead of nishimiya falling off that building , he does. how he falls off that building after telling his mother he would stop trying to commit su!cide. then a scene that predicts this is the first time nishimiya and ishida go to the bridge. nishimiya attempts to save the notebook ishida had given her. jumping into the water to save it , ishida missed nishimiya's hand , sensing how they failed to connect and how he failed to save her. but now , he saved her , because they have successfully connected.

although i may be done with this book please look over my writing in my new book and give me feedback. thank you for everything ! for all the views and everything , thank you !