Without you

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One month later
Lillian

It has been a month since Dylan passed away and my heartfelt emptiness not seeing his everyday broke me and him not being able to see the little bundle of joy grow broke me I haven't told Victoria yet I'm trying to find the right time my bump is starting to show which I have to find a way to tell her before it's too late. Armani has recovered from his injuries but he isn't mental recovered Joyce didn't tell him about Dylan until it was suitable and when he found out it broke him, he helped the police find the gang and they are put in jail.

Today Victoria invited me to her campaign for knife crime so no other mother can go through the pain she went through. I got ready into a beige dress with a collarless cardigan and then headed toward Victoria's house once I did get there I felt dizzy I haven't been here since the last time I was with Dylan as I walked into the house the dull aura hit me as the house was silent it broke me Dylan was always the joy I heard sniffs as I walked into the living room to see Victoria in sobs I hugged her as I can't imagine the pain she's going through losing her son.

Lillian- aw Victoria it's okay let it all out
Victoria- I feel stupid it's been a month and I'm not over it
Lillian- it's not stupid your his mother your bond was stronger
Victoria- I don't know what to do
Lillian- were going to fight and make sure that this doesn't occur to anyone else

As Victoria started calming down and wiping her face I decided it's time

Lillian- Victoria I need to tell you something
Victoria- sure darling what up
Lilian- please don't be mad
*Victoria getting suspicious*
Lillian- I didn't know how to tell you this *hand her the sonogram picture* but I'm 3 months pregnant I didn't know this until the hospital when I fainted and I didn't know how to tell you *Lillian starts tearing up* I don't know what I'm going to do without him
Victoria *hugs Lillian * aw hug come here this is the best news I've ever heard in weeks, I didn't think I can ever overcome the pain but this news just made me feel better I now I would have hit Dylan's head for not being safe but I'm so happy it feels like he left something for us I know it will be hard but me and Nate will be here.

I smiled as we both hugged the loss was terrible and hard but there was a blessing that comes along, I know life will be super hard but I will try as long as my angels are with me.

Me and Victoria went out and did the campaign for knife crime with our hearts broken we didn't want any other family to feel this pain it was hard for us to do it but we work through it. I then went home and ate food and then went and laid down. As I was laying down I was looking at my phone and I saw a video I whimper trying to hold my sobs in as a see Dylan speaking and telling everyone about how he has the best girlfriend ever the smile and the laugh imprinted my mind, I missed so much as I switched off my phone and laid down silently crying myself to sleep.

Week later
Today is the day I have a proper check up on my pregnancy and get more information I decided to bring Victoria along with me for her to have the experience as we sat and waited for the doctor to call me Victoria was telling me the bittersweet memory of Dylan as a child as we smiled with a tear rolling down I understand we will never overcome this loss as I was thinking we were interrupted by the doctor

Doctor -Lillian Benson

We walked in together hand in and hand as I sat down to see the doctor getting ready as we sat patiently waiting for the doctor to move the sonogram stick around my belly we heard two heartbeats very strong one I gasped as I looked at the doctor to make sure I want hearting thing

Doctor- well miss Benson you are expecting twins you are 3 months and two weeks along

I looked at Victoria with a smile she look proud as she tested up the doctor rubbed the gel of me and then I went and hugged Victoria as we had our moment. Then we went out to the shopping mall to get clothes we picked out some neutral colour clothes as we couldn't contain our self.