We all have our first love and first heartbreak for Lilian it is very similar as you go on to reading this book you will realise that many have the bittersweet experience to love and not so many have a romantic sweetheart.
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I am now officially four months pregnant and it's starting to get hard I'm pregnant with twins so it's twice as hard growing two bundles of joy, some days I feel great and others I feeling like giving up wishing Dylan was here with me to help out. My back has started hurting a lot and I haven't had any morning sickness even my craving are over the roof I have strange cravings such as pickles and peanut butter together. I have started feeling lazy and want to stay in bed all they because I become so tired.
Ever since I found out I was pregnant I didn't know what to do with my career I have had a thought for a while and decided on not going to university is the best option, I think it will start to become hard and overwhelming.
I decide to keep doing YouTube making awareness of knife crime and mental health issues and a singing a production company did reach out to help me create my very own album which I agreed to so I'm working on a good album that relates to my current situation of heartbreak, loss and a new beginning. I know if Dylan was here he would be so proud of me he did inspire me in many ways to sing and I'm so thankful for it.
I have also decided to launch a new business in clothing ware which is fun to work and learn about all the kind of material and fabric there are and making sure everything perfect I want to make it suitable for all body shapes and make it have a good colour palette.
Victoria and Nate have been a lot of help recently and they are starting to feel much better but there will always be a part of them that will be missing and there will be sadness. I decided to move from the apartment me and Joyce stayed in and move into a house next to Victoria's so I'm more close to my family. The house is a five-bedroom and a French-styled house it white and very big and it's nice spacious for me and the kids to be in.
Moving to the house has brought so much happiness and new memories but when I'm alone I feel the loneliness of not having Dylan with me which makes me cry a lot and bless Victoria she always comes over to keep me company and make sure I have eaten and not in any stress.
Mum has been cleared from cancer and she has finished her last chemo she is moving back and want to stay with me to keep an eye on me and keep me company. dad has been the absolute best he has helped me a lot and has been around a lot keeping me company he is beyond joy about his grandchildren and when I told him they are twins her almost fell due to shook I still don't think he's recovered from the news.
Joyce and Armani have come over to stay so day Armani is coping well it hard for him to really recover he is so happy about the pregnancy I see a gilt look on his face I feel like he blames himself but do one would have ever known the outcome and thought of those people who attacked them that night.
Skip to 5 months pregnancy Lillian's gender reveal
I woke up with tears in my eye I had a dream of Dylan telling me how proud he is and how happy he is up there with bubba I sniffed as I washed my face and decided to get ready today is the gender reveal we are going to find out if we having two boys or two girls or even a boy or a girl I smiled as I looked to my bump it is quite big now I gently touched it as I felt a kick I giggle. I got changed into a white dress
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I smiled as I went down I hear the door opened I saw Victoria walk in I hugged her in excitement as we couldn't wait to find out the gender although I'm happy with whatever gender it is. As Victoria led me out of the house towards the car to take me to the gender reveal party I thought about how excited Dylan would have been to find out the gender he wouldn't be able to sit properly I giggled to myself as a tear falls I sighed as the car come to a stop.
We both got out of the car to the venue as I saw a lot of beige colour everywhere and lots of balloons and desserts as I walked over to greet all my friends and family and found my way towards the dessert section to get something that meets my cravings. I sat down to enjoy the delicious cupcake as everyone started to play some games to see which gender it would be.
Hour later
I was then dragged to the front of the venue where it was time I decided to say a speech before I pop the balloon
Lillian " thank you all for coming today to the gender reveal to find out whether I will have 2 boys or 2 girls or even a boy or a girl, I want to say a huge thank you for the gift to our little bundle of joys and a huge thank you to my parent and Victoria and Nate for helping me a lot as you may now the baby's father is no longer with us and it has been hard on all of us and I'm grateful we stuck together and stayed strong and now it time to see what gender the babies will be"
As I got two balloons ready I had one and Victoria and Nate had the other balloon and everyone counted down
5 4 3 2 1
Boom as the balloon popped to see pink and blue glitter I jumped up and down as I teared up I hugged Victoria and Nate as I cried I was so happy I'm having a little boy and girl it just hurt to have to experience it alone if Dylan was here he would be jumping over the moon and shocked I smiled as I pulled away and wiped my tears away and hugged everyone else.
After the gender reveal
After the gender reveal was over a lot of people left there was only Victoria, Nate, Joyce, Armani and my parents as we all got the gifts and leftover desserts and ballon we headed to my house.
A few minutes later
Once we got to my house we put all the gifts into the soon to be baby's room and then we put the dessert in the kitchen and took the balloon into the back garden as we decided to let some balloons go up into the sky for Dylan and bubba which was so heartfelt and amazing we all shed tears but we enjoyed it.
