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Chapter 13

It was a really frustrating week. I would just simply wake up, attend classes, come to my room and read twilight all day. Every time I would read Edward's name, I would think of Ryan. I was not able to sleep peacefully, I would go and sleep in Ryan's room. Or just randomly lay on his bed.

I woke up tired in the morning and as usual checked calendar to see how many days were left. It was Thursday. I shifted and laid on my stomach, inhaling his scent from his pillow.

I got up and went to washroom, wore a yellow high neck with white jeans. I ate cereals while stalking Ryan on Insta. His pictures didn't do justice to him, he was dazzling in real life.

But he was more beautiful behind the face. Caring and gentle. He was always thoughtful with me. I was missing his smile, his gentle weight on my chest, the feel of his nose on my neck and throat. His sensual fingers on my stomach, his knuckles on my thighs, his blue, deep ocean eyes staring in my plain, boring eyes.

I lost track of time, and got late for my class. School was taking ages to finish. Finally it ended and I was heading towards library. "I told ya!! He was just trying to get in your pants. He's mine." I heard Rosie's annoying voice. She was saying this stuff to me since Ryan left.

I just ignored her, I knew Ryan this much that I could trust him he was not 'trying to get in my pants'. He treated me differently from others. It was a good difference.
I entered library and started setting all the books, kids were going to come tomorrow. "Excuse me?" a guy called to me, he looked like a nerd. "yes" I replied politely.

He was reading swipe right a young adult book. "I am Clay. I've been seeing you here for the past two weeks, I like you, I was wondering if you'll go out with me tonight, catch a movie or something?" he asked me confidently.

I was shaking and sweating. I didn't know how to react, I just didn't like when some random guy looks at me. I was not used to it, not many guys stare at me.

I had to tell him no. "....I don't think that's a good idea. Sorry." I rushed outside, I needed to calm down. I didn't know how. I hurried to Ryan's room, opened his closet and wore one of his hoodies. It was long enough that it reached my thighs. I laid in his bed hugging his pillow, inhaling his scent. I didn't know when I fell asleep.

I woke up at seven in the evening. I laid there for about half an hour doing nothing. I finally went downstairs, and cooked a pack of noodles for myself. Katie, Zack, William and Piper were still on jobs. I was alone, and felt lonely for the first time in about a month and a half.

I went on the roof top, and was enjoying the silent campus. It was a beautiful sight, snow was covering everything in range. I shivered and decided to went downstairs.

I slept in Ryan's room again, still wearing his hoodie. His whole room, his hoodie, his bed and his pillow smelt like him. I slept a little peacefully. I woke up frustrated.

Because the first thought that came to my mind was there's still two days left, if I'm lucky.

I hoped it was just two days. He said he had no idea how much long he would stay there.

God!!! It's frustrating.

I got up, brushed my teeth, washed my face and went to my room to change into something acceptable. I wore a maroon off shoulder sweater which exposed my stomach a little with blue jeans and maroon boots.

I wasn't feeling hungry so I skipped breakfast and went early to class. Professor took a surprise test which absolutely went rubbish. I reached library as usual ignoring Rosie and her slutty friends who just randomly make out with any guy who plays football.