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Chapter 38

I woke up exceptionally late next day. I didn't know what had gotten into me, I was sleeping a lot more than usual. I freshen up and wore a black t-shirt tucked in a black jeans and left my hair open.

I wore my specs. I went downstairs and ate cereals. After a few seconds, Ryan walked in and our eyes locked for a couple of seconds and it took all the effort in every fibre of my being to stop myself from hugging him or kissing or just staring at him. Ryan rushed to his room suddenly. I went to my room and was just sitting there, missing Ryan more than ever.

Why did he had to cheat on me?

Why is he ignoring me now?

Does he fell out of love after all?

I was thinking, and after each thought my heart sank further. I could feel it shattering over and over again. It was physical pain beyond control. I knew I will stay like this forever. It was not going to change.

I heard the door of room opening and Monty walked in. "you up?" he asked. I nodded. "now I want to talk to you about something serious." He warned me and my mind searched for everything that he could talk about.

"o..kay." I said hesitantly. "So? Do you still love him?" he asked and I froze. I looked away from. "don't avoid me. Come on, tell me." He said soothingly. "yes." I whispered and tears ran down my face. "good. Now I need to show you something."

He said and I was furious at him. "what's good about it? He has moved on and even if he hasn't moved on...he still cheated." I almost shouted at him.

He rolled his eyes. "stop panicking. You'll know why I said good." He said and pulled out a small camera which looked oddly familiar. He tapped some random buttons which I couldn't see, shifted and sat beside me, shoulder to shoulder.

The video started and my heart did a double flip. I saw Ryan coming in the frame and sitting on couch, he had a glass in his hand, he took a sip and placed the glass on the table. I pleaded with my eyes to Monty to stop the video. But he shook his head.

Cruel doodlehead.

I looked back at screen holding back my tears. Ryan was on his phone, smiling lightly. He dazzled me again. I shook my head and saw him laying on the couch. Just after few seconds, me and Monty heard William yelling at Ryan for help with something in the video.

He made an annoyed face and stomped out of the screen. I raised my eyebrows at Monty. "what are you trying to show me?" I asked him in frustration. "just wait! For God's sake!" he said to me exasperated.

I looked back at the screen still holding my tears. A girl came in view and she dipped something in Ryan's glass. When she turned to walk away, the camera caught her face. Rosie's annoying face.

Ryan came back in view and drank the leftover of whatever was in the glass and fell asleep within minutes. I was really confused that my head started aching. Rosie came and literally laid on Ryan.

Ryan wriggled to get free from her grasp. "it's me, Faith." She said to Ryan. He tried opening his eyes but couldn't. "You smell different today, Faith." He said and made a disgusted face after inhaling deeply.

But he was too sleepy and drugged to do anything. I hadn't realized that I was crying. Monty paused the video and smiled at me. The picture was getting clearer now. Rosie drugged him. And in that unconscious state he could still tell it wasn't me.

Many emotions hit me.

Happiness.

Anger.

Sadness.

Pain.

Remorse.

All at once. Happiness at the thought of Ryan being faithful to me. Anger on Rosie but moreover on me for not hearing Ryan out. Sadness because Ryan must have been in a bad state. And remorse because it was too late.

He had moved on.

My heart broke again. He can't wait for me forever. I wanted to bang my head on the wall again and again. "But it's too late now." I said between my crying. "no, there is still time. You should go and talk to him." Monty said encouragingly.

I shook my head. "he has moved on now. I know." I said hopelessly. "Faith, you idiot, stop assuming. Just go and talk to him. I don't want any excuses. And I think nothing has changed between you and him." He said in a determined tone.

I wiped my tears and stood up. Hugged him so tight, that I could crush his bones. "Monty, you're the bestest best friend I could ever ask for. Love you, Monty." I said to him.

"sorry, Faith. I have a girlfriend and I love her." He said pretending to friend zone me. I laughed. "On a serious note, you keep messing around, I'll keep handling it." He said and I hugged him again.

We both went out to find Ryan. William came running to us. "you can thank me later, Faith, about the camera that was left hidden that day." He said to me and I remembered that him and Piper were planning a prank on Zack and Jessica.

"you have no idea, how much grateful I am." I said. "he's in the stadium." He said and we hurried toward stadium.

We ran till we reached the edge of stadium. "I'll wait here. You go." Monty said and I nodded to him and searched for Ryan. I couldn't find him anywhere.

Then I saw a patch of familiar brown in the stands and saw him sitting there alone. He was so lost in thoughts that he didn't saw me approaching him. I sat two seats away from him.

"Ryan?" I said and felt the same thrill. He shivered lightly and looked at me with his blue hypnotic wide eyes. "Faith?" he asked, really shocked.

I smiled at him calmly and his hand went automatically to the back of his neck, an action out of nervousness. He was wearing blue football Jersey which had obviously his surname on it and number 07.

His hair as always messed up and his magnificent scar visible. I was aching to touch him. "how are you?" he asked really nervously and tiredly. "good. Um...so I was here to say that I know the truth." I said, guilt obvious in my tone.

No small talks.

His eyes widened even more. "and?" he asked hopefully. "and your smile isn't that stupid and your hair are not really annoying and your eyes aren't deceiving at all. Your eyes are actually hyp-"

I came to a sudden stop because he shifted beside me in a swift moment. He leaned closer a little. "so you're saying that you wouldn't mind me touching you now?" he asked, hope leaking. "one way to know. Try." I said smiling wide.

He looked at me for a little longer, then shook his head. His finger traced my forearm and I shivered. The feeling which engulfed me whenever he touches me was heavenly.

"so you're saying if I kiss you, you'd let me?" he asked with the same hope. "one way to know. Try." I repeated. His eyes locked mine and he leaned closer. He pulled my specs and tugged them in his shirt collar.

We were centimetres apart and he stopped to stare at my lips and his sweet breath fell on my face. Then his lips touched mine gently and I returned with the same gentleness.

I tried leaning back at the thought of us being in public but he didn't let me. His hand reached my neck and pulled me back to his lips and kept kissing.

No complaints.

His other hand secured in my both hands. He leaned back after the most wonderful kiss. "so you're saying that you'd let me love you?" he asked with hope and my heart did a happy dance.

"yes. I love you, Ryan." I said certainly. He grinned from ear to ear. "I love you more, Faith." He said with certainty. We both walked hand in hand, back to our dorm.