Dead Silence {Salvis}

23. True Endings

A/N: Might not do another Travis pov in a while. The idea of this story is that Travis is silent and nobody knows why. And since something sorta big happened last chapter, Travis is going back to being a mystery. There will be the occasional Travis pov, but it will be very short! Anyways enjoy!!

-Sal's Pov-

3 minutes...
3 minutes until the final bell rings.
3 minutes until I can talk to Travis.
3 minutes until I can explain everything.

What is there to explain? Was I not telling the truth. I know I was telling the truth. The partial truth. It's true that at first I didn't consider being friends with Travis. But things change, people change. It's only been about 2 months since school started and so much has happened. Everything feels different. I don't like change... perhaps this is why I wanted to push Travis away. Maybe the change was just too scary for me. I must have been too weak for change.

I was just getting used to everything, more change will happen because of me. What if I can never apologize to Travis. What if Travis doesn't listen to me? What if he ha—

"Sal! The bell rang let's go!" Said my teacher. I was brought out of my thoughts and grabbed all of my things. I almost ran out the door. Searching the crowded halls for Travy—- Travis. I don't have the right to call him that anymore.
I practically ran through the halls. Until I found him. My lov- Travis! I walked up to him. He was at his lockers, looking for something. "Travis! I wa—" I spoke but was interrupted. "Y-You d-ont hav-have to pretend any-more S-Sal" he spoke in broken words. I didn't know what to say. It was true that for a while, I was pretending. But I don't want to pretend anymore. I just want to protect him..
"I don't want to pretend anymore!" I said a little too loud for Travis' liking, as he flinched when I said that. "I ha-hate for it to end like thi-this. Let-s take a d-drive. So we can at-atleast have some-e what of a hap-happy ending.." Travis said, holding up his keys. Atleast we could agree on one thing, and that was that neither of us wanted a bad ending..

Travis grabbed my arm and pulled me to his truck. He motioned for me to get in the passengers seat so I did. Travis got in after me and started the truck. "How about I just take you home" Travis said. I assume that Travis is more comfortable in here since he is no longer stuttering. That's one of the things I noticed about him, he seems to talk better in places he's familiar with or when it's just me and him. Too bad it wouldn't be like that for long though...

The car ride was mostly silent, we were almost to my apartments so we wouldn't have much time to talk Anyways
"I wish you wouldn't have lied to me.. could have saved us so much time." Travis said breaking the silence. "I'm sorry" was all I could manage to get out. I really was sorry...

Travis pulled into the parking lot. "Goodbye Sal." He said unlocking the door.

Its now or never.

"Travis." He looked at me with a disappointing look. I quickly unbuckled my mask causing confusion for Travis. It was now or never, in this case it was definitely now or never.. I might never see him again. I grabbed his face and before he could react I closed the gap between us. He was tense but melted into the kiss. It didn't last long as he pulled away first. "I'm sorry I just wanted to do that." I said. "Why?" He asked. Omg is he seriously going to make me say it?

"Because..." I hesitated for a bit but finally got the courage to say "Travis. I love you"

Travis stared at me with a blank expression before turning forward. "Travis?" I asked. Had this been a mistake?

"I will try to make-make it thro-through this with out stuttering." I bit my lip out of nervousness. I put my mask back on and stared at him. He never looked back at me.

-3rd Pov-

Travis couldn't find the words. He knew what he wanted to say but just couldn't get them out. He didn't want to leave the blue boy sitting there so he finally said. "Sal you don't love me. You only think you do.. If you loved me you wouldn't have said those things about me. It's obvious that you don't feel how you say you feel. I'm still the same old Travis you've always known. People don't change Sal, it's not like I'm going to be nice forever. You are going to end up being hurt by me and you know it. Like you said, you only want me to open up to you. If this whole friendship was fake from the beginning, how could we ever love eachother Sal?" Sal looked at him with a pleading look. "But Travis. I do love you.."
Travis sighed "Le-let's just go ba-back to how things u-used to be. I liked it better when we didn't know eachother." Of course Travis didn't mean any of this. He just didn't want to risk getting hurt. So he hurt Sal before Sal could hurt him.
"I understand." Sal Said before getting out of the truck and going into his apartments. Leaving Travis all alone. All he ever wanted. He just wanted to be alone.

And maybe that's how it ends... maybe it ends with two boys hopelessly in love with eachother. Maybe it ends with people who would be better in another life.

Maybe it ends how it ends. Maybe it hasn't ended just yet. But do endings ever really matter? Endings are just something we humans create to find peace in something. It helps us think we have control. But everyone really knows that the truth is, the only true ending is death.

You may say you have ended a relationship or friendship. But people always find away back to eachother. Whether it be for good or for bad. Or whether it just be the occasional sight of the other. No communication, just sight.

Maybe

There is no true ending...