One night stand-Zayn Malik

Chapter 49- Unbearable.

Dedicated to Zayn

Ain't nobody dope as you.

Zayn's P.O.V

I stood there staring at the door where she just walked out. Again she walked out on me. Why did she keep doing that? Didn't she know how much that hurt?

" Zayn, what is going on?" I didn't notice that Harry was really standing there. I shook my head but smiled when I looked up. I looked around and saw his birthday present on the table. I reached out for it and walked with to Harry who wasn't showing any interest in the gift. He wanted to know what was going on.

"Happy birthday mate" I said and he took the box.

" Zayn what is it?"

Before he could say anything else I put my finger infront of my lips as a sign that he should not be talking.

" Just open it" I looked at the box because it was too hard to look at him. He seemed to be worried but it was his birthday and the last thing I wanted was to ruin it.

Harry knew that he couldn't win this one so he opened the box.

" Wow Zayn" He picked up a Rolex watch. He put the box down on the floor and stroke the brown leather carefully. I could see that Tara made the right choice by picking the Rolex that had an old map of the world inside and the golden circle around the glass itself. It was old fashioned and something Harry would like.

" Turn it around" I said excited and nervous at same time. Harry looked at me smiling before turning it around to see that we wrote something on the back.

" 1/5 of One Direction" Harry read outloud. He looked at me and smiled but a little laugh came out as he pulled me in for a hug.

" Thanks mate" He said serious as he let me go. " Really, thank you"

I pattered him loos on the shoulder as I confirmed that I knew that he was thankful.

We walked into the living room where everyone were having a chat. It was late and I could see that they were tired. I looked over the group and saw that one was missing. Somehow it was wrong celebrating the last of Harry's birthday just four of us. We should be five as something like this was going on.

" Where is Niall?" I asked. I knew that he did something wrong but I did too. I couldn't be mad at him for fulfilling his needs while he was on tour, but maybe he should had thought of the contract we signed. Maybe I should had told Tara that I did sign it too.

I just thought that I would never ever get her. I never knew that the best night of my life I would get to live over and over again with her. What was I supposed to do now?

" What is going on Zayn? Tara and Niall looked both confused and mad" Louis said as he got more comfortable in the sofa, wrapping his hand around Elenour.

" Remember the contract we signed before we went on tour?" I looked at the boys who just looked at each other.

" I don't know man, we sign alot of shit everyday" Louis said and Liam nodded his head.

" It was Modest who made Tara's company or back then her aunts company, sign a contract saying that it was not allowed to have any other than professional relationship with us and they made us sign too. Niall slept with Lisa who was send to us instead of Tara and Tara is now being sued by modern"

" Oh wow" Liam was shocked but his face changed as he looked at me.

" What about you..you are living with her" They all waited for me to save this for now but I didn't know how.

" They don't know" I said and looked down.

" They don't know ? Zayn are you crazy ?! What are you going to do if pictures of you and Tara will be taken on the streets? " Louis asked rather loud.

" Aren't they still pissed about that you broke the engagement with Perrie?" Harry asked, much more calm than Louis.

" Yeah they are" I admitted and avoided looking at their worried faces. Or were they judging me?

" Sweetie, what about Tara? Did she know that you signed?" Elenour asked kindly. I looked at her and I saw that she wanted me to fix this before it would be too late.

" That's why she left didn't she?" Liam said and took Sophia's hand.

I picked up my phone and texted my driver to be ready outside for me. I hurried finding my jacket and told the guys to lock the apartment when they left. Before they could say anything I was out of the building and on my way to Tara.

" Did you drive her somewhere?" I asked Casper who drove off.

" Yes sir, I drove her to-"

" Please take me there" I said before Casper could finish. He stopped at a red light and looked at me in the mirror.

" Don't need to say more sir" He said and when the green light came he stepped on the gas so hard that I slipped in my seat.

I couldn't stop playing with my fingers on the way to Tara. Somehow I felt like I was running out of time. I looked out seeing how the day was coming up but somehow my day was getting darker. For the hundredth time my stomach was filled with unwanted butterflies and my head filled with messy feelings.

This wasn't how I pictured everything. I didn't know how much stress and pressure could lock me down in a little box with out a air hole. Was I being selfish? Ungrateful? I didn't know that I wasn't strong enough for being Zayn Malik in the biggest boyband in the world now. That Zayn Malik

But I knew for sure that I was strong enough for being her Zayn Malik. I hope she saw that I would give up everything for her. Literally everything.

" We are here, now go" Casper said in a hurry. I woke up from my mind and ran inside without looking back.

" Can I help you?" The youngest security guard asked me as I made my way to the elevator.

" I'm here to see Tara" I stepped inside and he knew that I wasn't going to ask more questions.

" I love you, I love you so much that if quitting my job is what I have to do so you won't lose everything then..." I stopped thinking. What was going on with me?

The door opened and I followed my memories that would leave me to her office. I came around the corner and saw Tara standing in her office.

I came closer but was careful so she couldn't see me. I froze in my steps as I saw Niall in there with her. Why was he here right now when I had to have a word with her?

I kept my eye on them as I walked towards the glass door. Unbearable feeling came over me as my friend took my girlfriends hand in his before pulling her closer and pressing his lips against hers.

" Niall please don't ruin this" She said as she pushed him gently away, keeping her hands on his chest.

" This isn't going to fix anything now" He took her hands in his but she took them away and looked down.

She was about to look up at him again but her eyes looked straight into mine.

Did I get just a reason to leave this world now?