One night stand-Zayn Malik

Chapter 44- Words from Inside.

Was I awake or asleep? I didn't know for sure until I heard a soft cough. I opened my eyes slowly, noticing how dark it was in the room. I was lying on the right side. I got on the back and sat up. A little light had escaped through the long curtains and I saw Zayn standing there, looking out the window. He had his pants on and his hands crossed together beneath his chest.

I guess he heard me sitting up and dragging the sheets over my naked chest. He smiled and turned on the lamp.

" Hey" He said as he sat down on the bed. I didn't know how to be or what to say. Was I sad or was I happy that he was here? Was he just going to sleep with me and leave? Why did we always end up the same. Looking at each other the morning after, happy with what happened last night but worried that we would leave each other again like usually.

I tightened the grip on the sheets and stood up, leaving him surprised on the bed. I hurried to the bathroom and locked the door behind me before resting my back to the door.

I closed my eyes and prayed that he would just leave. I couldn't keep living in the lie that we would spend the rest of our lives together. I was tired of it. Tired of dreaming and hoping and lying to myself. He wasn't going to change. Ever.

" Tara?" Zayn's voice broke his way through the door as he knocked on it.

" You need to leave" I said and left out a deep breath.

I didn't hear a sound from him but somehow I could imagine his breath behind me.

" I'm not leaving"

I looked up and my heart skipped a beat. What did he mean? Of course he was leaving.

" Seriously Zayn, you need to leave" I said louder. I walked to the sink and looked into the mirror. I was breathing faster and nothing was going was going my way.

" Open the door Tara"

I looked at the white door. No. I couldn't open it for him.

" If you open the door I will leave"

I looked at myself in the mirror. I wasn't the same girl I was few years ago. I missed her. Maybe she would come back if he would leave me for good. Was that what I wanted?

I didn't remember touching that golden door knob and open the door but I was standing infront of him.

" Listen" He said and I could tell that he was nervous.

" I know, that we always think that sex can make up for everything. We are as one and we whisper love words that we want to hear into each other ears, we feel like we are loved and that is what we want but what if everything I say is true? What If I really do love you and I never want to lose you or I want all of you for more than just one night" He stopped and took one step closer to me but stopped when he noticed that I took one step back.

" Would you believe me if I told you that I meant everything I said last night?" He stared deeply into my eyes and I felt so bare and helpless infront of him.

Did he mean what he told me ?

" You are so beautiful, I love you so much, I'm so happy that I found you"

" You have told me all of this before Zayn, why would I believe you now?"

Zayn looked down and turned around to take a deep breath. Yeah I bet he felt confused now, really.

" I don't have time for this, I have to go to work" I said and walked passed him. I had two hours but I wanted to get out of there after five minuets. I walked into the bedroom and slammed the door behind me. I opened the wardrobe and let the sheets fall down on the floor before putting on underwear and a bra.