One night stand-Zayn Malik

Chapter 38- Guilty.

" Zayn? Zayn are you alright?" Perrie knocked on the door. I found the cold sweat make a line on my forhead as I reached for the toilet.

" Oh my god, are you vomiting? This is like the fourth time since you came home and it has been a week"

I tried to ignore her voice but she kept asking and knocking on the door. I flushed the toilet and stood up and turned on the sink. The cold water started running into my hands before I buried my face in the cold water. I looked into the mirror and I swear I didn't feel anything. The water wasn't hot or cold and I wasn't sure if I was supposed to laugh or cry.

" Zayn darling"

I smiled at myself in the mirror. " This is what you get" I stared into my eyes as I told myself the same line over and over again. She was cheating on me. I had been watching her every move since I came home and now it was December 31, and I was sure. Coming home late, always taking a shower before coming into bed, bailing on her friends, and the clothes she put in laundry smelled nothing like woman perfume.

I got myself dried before opening the door. Perrie stopped knocking and I heard her gasp.

" Come on, let's order some Chinese food before we go the ball" I said and walked passed her with the same smile on my lips.

" But I hate Chinese" I heard her walk after me.

" Oh I know" I whispered and picked up my phone from the kitchen table.

45 minuets later, we sat in the big kitchen, all dressed up, trying to eat Chinese food. She looked mad as she stuck her fork in the noodles again and again without taking them up. I hadn't touched mine since all I did was stare at her, giving her a change to admit that she was having in affair. But she didn't say a single word.

Her phone buzzed and she quickly looked at me before picking it up. There it was. The after dinner text from the one and only, Carl.

I smiled to myself before I took a sip of the only thing I had been drinking every night now, rum and coke.

" Who dares to text you at this time?" I asked without looking at her. I knew I would mess my temper if I saw her trying to find an excuse.

" It wasn't anything important" She lied straight to my face. I looked at her but she ignored me.

" Well" I wiped my mouth gently with a white napkin with Chinese letters on it before I threw it on the table. " If it was not important, why not tell me?"

She looked at me. I smiled at her and it seemed to make her uncomfortable. I liked that.

" Perrie?"

" I said it wasn't anything important" She stood up and was about to walk passed me but something came over me and I grabbed her hand. She gasped as she looked shocked at me and her hand.

I slowly stood up without taking my eyes away from hers. To make the moment even more perfect her phone buzzed again.

" Let go of me Zayn" She said serious.

" Are you cheating on me?" I asked her in the same tone. Without knowing it I had tightened the grip on her hand but she was so shocked that she didn't even bother whining about it.

" No" The word came out of her beautiful mouth. I looked at it for a moment.

Her screen lightened up again and she pressed the lock button. Smart.

" Can't Carl sense that we are talking?"

Soon as I let his name out her mouth got open and tears started building in her eyes. I let go of her hand and took one step closer to her. That guilty bitch.

" Yes, I know about you two and no you are not that good at hiding things away from me" My voice was low and I barely heard myself talking but Perrie seemed to hear it because the tears started streaming down her face.

I turned around. I couldn't watch her cry.

" I'm sorry Zayn..." She started between taking deep breaths.

" We are married Perrie" I ran my fingers through my hair that I had been working on four hours. It didn't seem to matter anymore. I had given up almost my social life for her, my hobbies because she didn't like the smell of painting, almost my family because she didn't get along with it and worst of all...I chose her over Tara. Maybe I took the marriage thing to serious.

" I don't know what happened to me, we were touring and you had just proposed and Carl was one of our dancers and he was ready to talk and then you went touring with a girl and it made everything worse and-"

She had to stop. I shook my head as I put my hand in the air as a sign for her to shut up while I tried to think.

" Wait a minuet" I looked at her confused. " Carl was one of your dancers when you went touring two and a half years ago?"

Perrie stopped crying and she nodded her head slowly as she agreed.

My heart started pounding so hard in my chest that it was getting hard to breath.

" You have been sleeping with him since?" I found my hands shake as I put them on my chest. I had just proposed before she left on tour. I trusted her.

" Zayn it was just a bad time back then..."

" You were just engaged ! " I yelled at her. I took the ring of my finger. " Does this mean anything to you?"

Just as I stopped talking I saw the look on Tara's face. Tara made me just a man with a ring on my finger. I looked at Perrie. She had nothing to give me. I didn't see my future with her, I didn't see anything.

" I love you and I will cut everything off with Carl" Her voice was weak and she closed her eyes as she said his name.

My phone started ringing and I picked it up and saw it was Niall.

" Hey mate, we are outside" He sounded a little drunk already.

" On my way" I answered and hung up.

" Are you seriously going to go to that stupid mask ball?" Perrie's face changed from sad to anger.

" You know what Perrie, I'm going to make this really easy for you" I dropped the ring on the floor before turning around and walking to the door. On my way I grabbed a black mask.

" Zayn Malik get back here ! You don't just leave me here ! "

I chose to ignore her as I took one look in the mirror before opening the door.

" I am not the stupid one here. There was no baby, I made that up"

My heart skipped a beat. I turned around and saw her standing only few steps away from me. Her mascara was all over her face and her eyes were blood red.

" I saw the way she looked at you...I'm not stupid"

I opened my mouth to say something but I couldn't. How could she lie? Did she convince the doctor to lie to me too ? Was that the reason why she didn't want to take it to the media? Because she knew that soon as she got me to marry her I wasn't leaving.

" When I come back, you will be gone" I turned around and opened the door.

" I did it because I love you ! " She shouted after me but I slammed the door as hard as I could.

I ran to the limmo where I met my boys who cheered when I sat up in the car, ignoring that now I was just a man with no wife, no love and no ring.