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2 - Albert- i may be dieing but im going to look good doing it

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Albert POV)
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I'm in the kitchen with Davey and Jack when my lungs start to burn I'm coughing and double over the sink three coloured petals float out my mouth David pats my back rubbing circles I let out a pained sigh

I notice the new color red and purple "there's a new color" Jack smartly observes "yeah no heck Sherlock" He rolls his eyes washing the flowers down the sink "but why have I contracted this disease" I throw my arms out "when I'm not even sure of who my soulmate is."

Romeo and Finch stomp down the stairs "Yo David ready to go" David picks up some water bottles kisses jack on the cheek "I'll see you tomorrow-" he walks out and pause "you have to pick them up I have to do home stuff"

Jack nods and smiles lovesickly "he's great isn't he"

(Spot POV)

"Shot you know better than anyone that I cannot tell him"  he nod knowingly Waves rests his hand on his chin "so he's your soulmate it doesn't me you have to get with him." I roll my eyes "I know that it just feeling argh"

"I can't deal with a this I'm going to bed" I throw myself up stair and throw shut my rooms door I stare at the ceiling for what feels like hours but in reality is a few minutes slowly the sleep washes over me like a Tidal wave I imagine The blonde boy I spent the day with a the inside of me glows

But I can't there's just to much about me I could hurt him and I don't want to bring an innocent person in the s*it storm that is my love

Yes I I would like to be with someone but tis just to much for me

(The next morning)
(Race POV)
Tich is sick I don't think he really is I just think he need a break form everything he been stoping in his tracks and just starring at his hand

He also been crying lot about little thing he dropped a box and just stood there and cried and I have to remind myself it's not my job to care for him but I put a note by his phone telling him to call me if he need some thing to call me he hasn't called me yet at least it's a Friday the Christmas break is coming up

But I never like Christmas I'b of been exited before my mum died it just ruined itself last year was the worst year of my life when Tich was a baby I would be with him on Christmas but there was alway a 2 year age gap between us but I still feel like he is my job I care but I don't tis hard to explain

Cotten mouth had him when she was 16 and kinda never told him she's his mother he just lived with not knowing she is his mom my mom left when I was ten I know that Tich she was horrid to him and I guess I don't really miss her  really miss her with her I was fearing for Tich she hated him she always would like attack him for small things I remember when He was younger he would follow me around he wanted to be me

How time changes he killed his 1st person at 11 he was crying for days and then the happy little brother I had was gone died with Mr Collins dad never made me kill because he was the the leader of the gang I didn't need to earn my keep I was to sit there and look pretty

David picks me up I greet everyone in the car and smile at Albert , Albert smiles back but he looks slightly dead massive bags ringing his eyes he's bouncing his skateboard on his knees Finch and Tommy boy where in the back seat lips locked together holding each other like the last thing on earth

we pull up to school god I hate being awake

"Oi guys we are here" they ignore us skittery shove Tommy boy that catches finches attention

the day goes on with boring people talking boring things until I sit in the locker room the I see it and I feel the world break down around me the mark MY mark he sees it too and we share a look and before I know what I'm doing my lips are locked with his  oh how one short passionate kiss could change the course of my life he pushes me away "I can't do this" I sigh my reflection on the tiles behind him "Race I like you a lot but I can't-I- just can't" then my world shattered it was gone I felt my eyes prickle I wanted to go back and sto all this so I could be happy but-but I can't and he's my soulmate he jumps up and grabs his bag and with a door slam he's gone

(Spot POV again)
F*ck no no no no I can't no he knows he's going to get hurt get out of there  I'm running  I ran to the bus stop  and caught the bus home I lay there for hours I was still crying when Hotshot came home
"Spot hay buddy, what's up?" He came and sat next to me I sit up shuffling to his side I hold him

I take a breath "hey-hey what's wrong?"
I sob harder when I even try and answer him
"Race Amore-one day scared" he rubs my back
"They can't get you now Spot remember that" I'm breath hard fast my lungs feel like they could burst
"Sean" i shoot up
"How do you know Harley How do you f*cling know?" He stands up and hugs me so tight the pressure reliving a lot of the stress
(Hour skip)
I need a walk clear my head I need it so I walk

(Young spot in italics future spot in bold)
Running. Out of breath. Foot falls.
Pass the alleyway almost there
Past streets I don't know
Remember who I am where I came from
The bridge is I front of me standing tall
In a state a I don't live in
When I was 13 it happen and I found my self alone
Then residue of a gunshot rings in my ears
I reach the place I'm meant to be
I reach the bridge
And I just collapse
I'm scared for people I hardly know
I'm so hungry
And tried
There are eternities fo me
To find myself
To find my home
To find help

Im sat alone under a bridge not carrying what they think day fades to night and I hope that the world will fix itself like may nights before

I'm alone for ever he's gone dead and gone I don't want it to be so I never liked him but the guilt it carry's no one would know that

For the first time I am truely know me no one but me the world and I I want to be brave I want to show the world but the name carry's weigh that I understand now more then ever and ant under a bolder

Apart from me