Spitfire

11. Can We Say... Awkward

Chris

Being with Stacy was exhilarating to say the least. I have been with a few girls in the past but nothing compared to what just happened. I know I agreed to this fuck buddies thing, I don't know what the hell I was thinking.

You were thinking with your dick not your brain.

*"Aren't they one in the same?" Stacy gives me a smug look. "Woman stopped interrupting!"*

I wanted to stay and talk to her but I know how Lucas can get, and by the sound of it it's pretty bad. I walk into his room as he yells and throws a lamp.

"Fuck Lucas!" I rush over to him and pull the broken lightbulb from his hand. "What the hell happened?" He looks at me blankly for a second then shakes his head as to snap out of whatever thoughts he had. Honestly that look scared the crap out of me.

"He fucked some chick!" He yells and goes to pick up the alarm clock to throw but I take it from his hand. "What's worse is I'm no fucking better!"

I'm confused by what he is saying. His hands start to shake and I pull him to sit down on his bed. "I used him! I was so angry I wanted to punish him!"

"What did you do?"

"I fucked him in the secluded part of the park. Letting him think I forgive him but I don't! I fucking hate him right now! So I fucked him and left. I never thought I'd do that to him."

He gets up and starts throwing stuff in a suitcase. "I need to get out of here."

"I'm sorry Lucas. I thought you guys were just fooling around."

He looks at me with such sad eyes and I see a tear slip down his face. He curses himself as he wipes the tear away and the TV goes crashing to the ground.

"I wish that were true. Never fall for someone Chris. It's not worth the fucking heartbreak."

"Let me help you."

He nods his head and starts shoving stuff into the suitcases he has. I think back at what he just said. I shake my head because when you find the right one it could be great. Is it worth the heartache though I'm not sure.

We leave the room and run into Stacy and Jaxon. Jaxon looks in just as rough shape and Lucas. Although I like Jaxon, I can't help but be pissed off he hurt my best friend.

"Lucas" he pleads and I can feel Lucas body stiffen next to me. I look over at Stacy and give her a sad smile. I see her looking between all of us and is uncomfortable, but she is a loyal person and will stick by if they need her.

"Stay the fuck away from me Jaxon. What we had is over." Lucas says with a stone cold expression. He turns on his heel and rushes out of the house.

I feel my phone vibrate and see a text from Stacy.

Spitfire: I'm taking Jaxon to my place.

I know I shouldn't feel jealousy but in a way I do. Even though the thought is ridiculous.

Me: I'm going to stay with Lucas until he cools down. Can we meet up later.

Spitfire: Ready for round two already.

I can't help but chuckle at that. I look at Lucas giving me a weird look.

"I'll be fine by myself Chris."

I shake my head at him because that is not going to happen.

"Nah man I'm gonna hang out with you for awhile. So where are we going?"

We get in his truck and he peels out of the driveway. " To my house."

My phone dings again and see the message.

Spitfire: Everything okay?

Me: Yeah I'll call you in a little bit.

Spitfire: okay jackass 😋

I look at Lucas and his hands are gripping the steering wheel tight.

"You mean yours and Kayla's house. Man I haven't been there in ages."

This is brings a small smile to his lips for a moment.

"Yeah Gram and Gramps were the best."

We arrive at the house and I help him take the sheets off the furniture. I stay for a couple of hours until Lucas finally falls asleep. I have never seen him like this, it's like he is in love with Jaxon. That's ridiculous you can't fall in love that quickly.

I wait outside for Stace since Lucas drove me here. Yeah I didn't think that one through well. When she pulls up she gives me a small wave. I climb into the car and smile.

"Thanks Spitfire."

"Didn't think that one through huh." She giggles, and I love that sound come from her.

Love no not love...like I like her giggle.

"Nah guess not!"

I laugh and then it gets quiet, a little too quiet.

"You hungry?" I had to break the awkward silence somehow.

"Yeah I could eat. I left Jaxon at my place he passed out."

"How about Max's diner?"

"Sure."

We get there about ten minutes later. Once inside we take a seat, order food and sit in silence again.

I sigh and look at her as she chews on her lip.

"I knew I shouldn't agreed to this."

Her head snaps up to me in shock.

"What?"

"This" I point between the both of us. "I didn't want this...this to be awkward between us."

She puts her hand on mine, fuck I want to snatch my hand away. Her touch felt like my body was on fire, but she snatches her hand away first.

What the hell was that?

She looks at her hand and then looks at me.

"It's just been a weird day all the way around."

Our food arrives and we eat in silence. This awkwardness is getting to me. After I finish eating I look at Stacy and she seems nervous. God I wish I knew what she was thinking about.

"You know what Stace. This is too weird. I rather have you yell at me, be pissed off at me but this doesn't feel right. If this is how it will be after we have sex then I can't do this."

I wait for her to say something but she doesn't. So I take that as my cue to leave. I put cash down on the table and look at her one last time.

"I hope you find what your searching for but I'm not going to be the guinea pig in that scenario."

Still wait one last moment but nothing. I walk out of the diner with out looking back. Once I'm outside I realize that I don't have my car.

How do I keep ending up like this without a way home?

I'm a fucking idiot.

My phone vibrates and I pull it out thinking it might be Lucas or something.

"Hello"

"Hey Chris, it's Kylie. Jaxon gave me your number."

I slap my hand on my forehead as I start walking away from the diner.

This is the last thing I need right now. Fuck my life!