Spitfire

15. This Always Happens

Stacy

There is always that one moment in life where you think that you can truly be happy, but then it turns to shit. That is my life right at the moment. Don't get me wrong I love my life to the fullest but I wish that it was not filled with drama at the moment. I am getting so use to Chris being around it's welcoming and scary at times. At this very moment though I just want to strangle him.

"For the millionth time Chris I am alright!" I huff out in annoyance because I know he is looking out for me, but I have been taking care of myself pretty good on my own.

"I just want to make sure that the bastard is staying away from you that's all."

We are laying on my roof looking at the stars. I love this spot because it is peaceful up here like I do not have a care in the world. I turn to look at him and man is he gorgeous. I am surprised that he is not taken yet. Well we have been hooking up pretty much for the past two months but I am not ready for any labels or anything like that. I just like being in his presence, he feels safe and comforting.

"Not once since the time at the club. So you can stop acting like you are my damn bodyguard and be my friend. I don't want to keep thinking about that alright."

He looks over at me and gives me a small smile, and tucks my hair behind my ear. "Fine but if he approaches you..." I sit up and get ready to go into my house he is killing my zen. "Yeah yeah call you, Lucas or Jaxon I know." I get up and go inside with Chris following behind me. Once in my room he spins me around so I face him. I put my hands flat on his chest and he chuckles, damn jackass.

"I just worry about you Stace. I don't want anything bad happening to you."

"It won't. I know how to take care of myself like I said before. You should probably go before it gets to late."

His eyebrow raises up in surprise, "getting rid of me already." I know there is a hidden meaning behind his words, just by the tone of his voice.

"You guys have the big game tomorrow and I do not want to be a distraction."

I turn to walk away but he pulls me back to him and his lips land on mine. "You're a good distraction." he says into the kiss. His phone rings and it's a good thing because I needed to come up for air. He looks at it then silences it and puts it back in his pocket.

"Who's that, that you are trying to avoid?"

"It's just Kylie. I regret telling Jaxon to give her my number."

For some reason that bitches name makes my blood boil. I mean does she not get the hint that he does not want to be with her. This always happens I feel good and then something has to bring the mood down.

"Just call her back so she will stop bothering her."

He sighs as he pulls me with him to sit on my bed. " She probably wants me to go out with her again. I keep making excuses but she hasn't taken the hint."

"I could always tell her to back the fuck off!" that came out a little harsher then I meant to and he laughs as he nudges my shoulder.

"Some one sounds jealous."

"Huh as if! I don't do jealousy. Jealousy leads to stupid shit. You are a grown man Chris you can do whatever you want. Nothing is tying you down."

Why the fuck did I just say that? Oh that's right because I am an idiot.

Something just triggered in me when he asked if I was jealous. Jealousy is what drove Dominic to do what he did, and I for one want to stay clear of that kind of crap. Chris stares daggers at me and I know I just fucked up. He gets up and grabs his jacket.

"Yeah I guess you're right Stace, nothing is tying me down."

"Chris I..."

He whirls around to look at me as he reaches the door. "You what Stacy?" Why do I cringe when he says my name like that. I am just going to hurt him in the end because I cannot give him what he wants.

"Nothing you should just go."

"That's what I thought." He says while grinding his teeth. "I guess whatever we had going on is done then."

I nod my head without looking him in the eye. I can feel my eyes begin to water from it, I am such a coward. I hear Chris sigh as he is still by the door.

"I guess that is it then. I really hope you find what you are looking for Spitfire, but if you ever need me, call me."

I don't say anything as he walks out the door, and I can't even move when I hear the front door shut. I just feel the tears slide down my face. I really do care for Chris but it is for the better I know it. As much as I would love to be with him I just can't put myself out there to be that vulnerable again. I know he would never do anything remotely in the same line as what Dominic did, but I still can't open my heart like that.

I always do this to him and I will not do it any more. I let him get close to me and then I push him away. He will be lucky when he finds the right person for him. I know it is just not me. I get up from my bed as my phone ring. I look at the screen and wonder when that got there. It's a picture of Chris and I laughing into a kiss. I never realized he took that and it just makes my heart ache more. Why did I do this to myself...to us.

I finally answer my phone and wish I didn't.

"Stacy we need to talk."