Sleepless dreams

You never knew me

I'm here in my own little world,
But your words are coming through.
But you gotta tell me, is it true?
Am I on cue?
Did I really never mean anything to you?
Well I guess not because were through.
But you damn well knew,
And I am so sorry because every chance you gave me I just blew!
And I could never imagine how hard that was on you and for that i am truly sorry. But at least you won't have to see me no more-y
But please just sit down and listen to my side of the story.

I tired to feel your every high and low.
But you just pushed me away, I guess that just goes to show
That you never cared. You keep telling me to move on, but your the one who won't let go.
Why cut me this low?
You know it will hurt.
But I guess that's your mission: to treat me like dirt.
I tried to be good to you but I soon learnt.
There's no point, it burnt but now when I look at you my stomach churns.
I know it sucks buts it's the truth.

You can claim that I'm just having my "white boy troubles"
That's why I crated this bubble.
No one in and no one out.
So no one is about to start hurtin' me.
You wanna talk? Why certainly.
You never saw that you meant the world to me.

I'm sorry for being so negative.
And I also don't mean to sound repetitive.
But I think someone ought to give me a sedative.
But I gotta give creditive where it's due.
I owe this gift to you.
It only took you to go for me to realise my potential.
Although now when it's just us you seen to always be on your menstral.

You tore me apart.
As much as I want to, I don't think there's enough left for a new start.
You tore my heart from my chest. But you always seem to know what's best.
So I guess that it's time to put this to rest. But I refuse to rest until you read this and see what you really did to me.

I hope one day, you realise
That I'm nothing like those other guys.
And if you stopped your criticise, and tried to visualise yourself through my eyes you might actually realise
Why I hate goodbyes.
Yet I can still hear your cries and pleas.
I walk on my own through these trees
And I start to think if you could ever really see,
Just how much you really meant to me. Maybe then you would see, why I can't walk away that easily.

Yet you always say that I make it about me.
So there you go. Be free. This is what you wanted isn't it? You didn't want me to hold you down.
You always felt like you would drown if you stayed with me.
Oh no I can't say that word.
Fuck it's so obserd that you treat me like a turd.

You don't seem to know what's at stake.
The heart that you take, is the one that you can break.
I can't make you stop acting fake,
But I'm the one who won't break.
So if you don't mind Its my heart that I'll retake.
I would not like to partake in a conversation involving you.

So that's all I got, I'm out.
Yet I'm not about to quit because of you. So goodbye, so long.

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