Sleepless dreams

Forgive me nightmares I

I just want to start off by addressing my nightmares.
To all of those people who cared.
This is for you, my perfect, deranged nightmares.

From day one I could never explain it.
I've always tried to teach myself how to suppress and sustain it.
And now I feel like I cannot contain it.

There are two kids sitting on a park bench with nothing to say.
Just and average boy and girl, on an average day.
With these two kids with nothing to say.
They don't do anything together. They hardly talk, barely look at each other and never play.
But they both like each other, these kids with nothing to say.
They just sit there, day after day after day.
Just two kids in love, with nothing to say.
The boy turns to the girl, the girl looks back and pushes her hair out of the way.
The boy stutters, thinking of something to say.
Words finally come from the boys lips, and those words where, "I love you." He finally had something to say.
She smiled and left for another day.
They came back, sat at the same seat and watched as time faded away.
Once again these two kids sat with each other with nothing to say.
The girl turned to the boy and said, "I love you too" and they kissed and hugged away.
So they begin to talk and do things like run and play.
But they still had nothing to say.
Eventually they just say there, watching the evening sky, as they just wasted another day.
The girl and boy face each other, hug, kiss and then go their own separate ways.
The next day, the girl came back, but the boy wasn't there. He was gone for the whole day.
Eventually he came to her under the evening sky, kissed her hand, dropped to his knee and pulled out a ring, still thinking about what to say.
The girl teared up and smiled as if she had been with him the entire day.
She lifted him up and kissed him, and in doing so the whole world had faded away.
It was just these two kids with nothing to say.
They stayed together, watching the world as it crumbled and faded away.
But the only things that stayed,
Were the bench, the ring, and the two kids, who still had nothing left to say.

There are many different ways about the world that we can perceive.
All of the lies that you choose to believe.
All of the people who just pack up and leave.
To every breath that we breathe,
Every child we conceive, it has to lead somewhere.
But you don't know where.
You wanted to retaliate but you just won't dare.
Because your messing with a guy who just doesn't care.
So please,  forgive me my beautiful nightmare.