Sleepless dreams

One last time

This is my last song. About that girl that a boy once loved. Now, their both gone

When you was leaving I knew that I would be missed.
But when I was with you, all I felt was helplessness.
I get it I'm a mess.
But when you said the people you cared about you left me off your list.
So nowadays you just smoke and cut your wrist.
And I haven't got a care in the world, it's all just bliss.
But when i was with you, I was cursed and blessed.
My friends always asked me why I stayed I just said "i don't wanna hurt her" but now that's all I feel so why can't you do the same? You dressed it up, made me look bad.
But if a single fuck was all I had, I don't care.
You exposed me, unearthed the real me.
And for that I thank you. I can finally see.
I owe you nothing, not respect, not sympathy.
And you definitely ain't gettin an apology.
But if you really did care, what did I want to do? I wanted to work with electricity.
And electrician. But funnely enough.
You was always so jealous,'but you were the one that loved another. I shit you not.
I won't forget that T. That wasn't an accident, a mistake. You talked about him like he was the only one who mattered.
And you just walked all over me left me bloodied, beaten and battered.
Well I guess that I'm flattered. Now your gone,
So fuck off you moron.
I'll call you every name in the book, but when I do, just remember this: you did this to us.
You drove us into this hole and one of us ain't making it out, and you have no lust.

To me your not beautiful anymore.
I look at you and I want to puke, but I never called you a whore.
Although it is tempting, but I'm frozen to the core.
If your still willin to explore, don't bother.
I can't be seen with you, your nothing to me. I implore,
Fuck it. Remember that last time we dated? The last month? I only took you back to shut you up.

Do as you please.
And when you've had your fill just leave
All the lies you conceived.
All the shit that you expected me to believe.
You where always so mean to me.
Not once could you be a good girl friend.
Only time you were nice to me, was when my hands where around you, and you where kissing all up my neck, but those times have come to an end.

Do you think that one day another will love me?
And she won't be like you and shove me?
You all look at me like I'm this abomination.
Like your the diction,
And drive me to starvation.
I don't need your redemption.
I want you to feel pain and damnation.
Just like I did, bitch.
Feel the burn,
Maybe then you'll learn to feel for others.
Oh wait you do like to feel others. If you know what I mean.
Oh I'm sorry I didn't mean to cause a scene.
Or to be so obscene.
'Im just a silly stupid teen'
That don't fly with me, I just don't wanna be seen.
Next time you come near me, your getting fucked off.
You really don't think I will? call my bluff.
See who gets snuffed with a face full of red blush.
And when I would feel your ass you would get this rush or sensation.
But I'll leave that for another day.

God somedays I'm so glad that no one can see what all this really means. And with your tiny brain,
All of this will just sound the same.
You could never see that I was in pain.
Things where never the same.
I am still in pain, and yet you can't see it,
And all of this, to me it...
It all looks the same. And don't you dare ever talk about Amelia, but I never told you about Sierra.
Boy she was rarer.
But I couldn't be her carer.
But for you I was always there-a
Hoping and praying that you would treat me fair-a

But if your serious, come into my little world and see the world as I do.
You can't? Oh I knew.
You'd come up with every excuse to make sure hat we didn't grew.
First chance you got, you abandoned ship, you flew.
But I guess that's just what your kind do.
There's no helping you.
I and me and Brie have Logan too.
Just thought id let you know.
You still hurtin to let go?
Go stick a needle in your arm and let the world show.
Ever dick you see, you feel you just wanna blow.

Yeah I'm an asshole.
But at least I'm the one in control of what I say and do.
And I don't have you.
I only have me to sit here and lecture you.

Me and Brie never made out.
And I'm sorry but I don't think that's about to happen either.
I won't stoop that low, I just can't be that neither.
I think for your birthday I'll get you a tether. All the bullshit you cause,
You ain't never taken a pause.
Not once to think about others, the pain you cause.
All the nause-ia
That you cause to Brie, Jess ruby and poor old me-a

You can suck my dick or fuck off. Oh wait you already did both.
You hade torrential growth.
Every joint your buddies have you have a toke.

I don't give a fuck if you think that I've changed. You said that this wasn't me, the fuck would you know? You never knew the real me in the first place.
Your jut a big disgrace.
You ain't got the guts to say anything to my face.
Because this ain't your place.
And I'm counting the days.
All of your evil and twisted ways.

All I ever have you was the best I got.
When I asked you for one last shot.
You acted like you where "so damn hot"
And you said that your not, I don't need to repeat it.
But I'm so cold, my feet it, nothing.
Anyone stands in my way I'll defeat it.
And when we finally meet, it will be glorious. Jut to see you riddle around on the floor.
Just like the good little bitch you are. And as I walk out that door,
You'll grab my foot, ask me too end it screaming you can't take this no more.
You did this to your self. No one else. This was YOU T. The blame is on you. But I wouldn't be like this without you. So you ain't getting an apology but a thank you.
Now if you commit suicide...well we won't go down that road. But if you were serious about it, then what stopped you? You said that I'm the one that you thought of. Well now I'm not there. Bottom line, I don't give a fuck either way. We could all tell you to do it. But at the end of the day your the one who made that choice. Not us. You made the decision to pull the trigger. You did this to yourself.

So this is my last and final words to you T. But it'll feel so much better face to face but....this is the best got
Go. Fuck. Yourself