Sleepless dreams

Family is everything.

He tries to protect his family.
But the thing he's protecting them from is me.
But he just can't see it,
But to me, it's just not that easy.

Believe me, I want to ride of happily into the sunset.
But I just cannot walk waw at from this and forget. Each day I see everyone and I think "are they the people I first met?"

He can hear someone at the door 'knock knock'.
He walks up and twists the lock,
And to a sudden surprise, a shock.
It was his old friend Brock.
But he wasn't here to say hello he was only here to mock him. To put him down, ridicule.
Hey you know that ain't cool.
It's just straight up cruel.
And yet you persist like a mule with a stick up his ass.
Who will not pass up this golden opportunity to see him struggle.
The best he can do is form a mental crudgel

We found out too late, he was too slow.
Could he have prevented it? No one knows.
But it just goes to show that you don't trust anybody.
The only real way you can protect your family is with a 12 gauge shotty.
And dump their body in a ditch and let it go rotty.
No time to go potty it's go time.

I know what happened, happened but it just hurts and I'm the least affected.
It really hurts but sometimes I feel like I could have prevented and protected.
But each time I tried I was rejected.
The worst part is that the ones rejecting me are the ones I'm trying to protect so let's start reflecting.
There's no time for these feelings to continue neglecting theses thoughts but I couldn't have stopped something I didn't know.
I can't sit here knowing he got away and I have nothing to show!!
I found out too late. Up high, down low...too slow!
But just so you know C, if I had known I would have done anything to stop it. You have to know this!! Each day I can do something but I just cope it.
What's the point in trying to stop it? This is my punishment until I can learn to let go and drop it.

But I'm never letting this go.
So fuck it I'll take all of it each day and it's only just starting to show.
I have nowhere else to hide, no where left to go.
I have nothing to show, yeah 'family is everything' what fucking idiot came up with that?
I'm ready to lay them flat and drive a knife through his skull.
It's what he should get for being so goddamn dull

Were all the same inside.
Our decisions and our woeful prides.
Sometimes the best we can do is say that we tried,
Even when we were the ones who were denied.
But now it's our turn to decide, who has to go and who can stay.
All I'm willing to say is that all I wanted after each day was you, T. And that still remains the same.
No matter how much the rules change the game is still the good old game we've been playing for all our lives, it's hasn't changed, we have.

Mine, intertwine fine mine rhyme
Remember when you where mine?
When our hands and bodies where intertwined.
I hate to remind you but I cannot keep on being a mime.
So that's why I wrote this poem or this rhyme.
But I think its about time that I let go.
All this hurt is just starting to tell me and it's letting me know that maybe it's not worth fighting for.
And I know that contradicts everything that I've been writing for, but after a while it becomes a bore,
And it burns and freezes you to the corn. That cold burn you get when you don't learn.
So I think it's time to go home and return to the 'normal world' although I jut heard,
That it's MY word that doesn't mean anything, it's obserd.

I came for closure.
But all I got was exposure,
So I guess that disclosure?
But honestly I can never be sure.

Everyone's always deserting,
And it's always me and J always left hurting. I just can't be bothered. Anymore so I call this a wrap. But it's funny because it's actually is a rap or a poem but I guess that's for you to decide. That's all, goodbye.