The Missing Piece

Mariya
(The lost memories the last part)

Maybe the stress, fear and emotional pain took me last night that I woke up late. The first thing I did is to go to my kuya's room. I didn't even mind fixing myself.

When I arrive outside his room, the first thing I noticed is his door widely open. I immediately go inside just to check if he's already awake but he's not there anymore. His closet are open and half his clothes and things are gone.

And I know what I feared the most is now happening. Kuya Miller left.

Dahan-dahan akong napaupo sa kama niya dahil sa pang hihina. I'm grounded the reason why my phone was confiscated. I'm not allowed to go outside so I can't look for my kuya or send him any message.

Hindi rin ako allowed tumanggap ng mga bisita o sino paman sa bahay kaya halos mawalan ako ng pag asa.

I check for anything on his side table and I found a folded bond paper with my name written on it.

To My Mariya Camila,

I'm sorry if I'll leave for now. Papa would be more strict to you of I hang around. Trust me he'll loosen up if I leave. Don't worry too much, baby okay? I'll be back.

Your handsome brother, Miller

He has really ways making things as light as possible just like his band mates.

But I would lie if I say I'm not devastated or sad. I'm about to lose myself if I stay more days inside the house with my parent's silent and cold treatment towards me.

Saka lang gumagaan ang pakiramdam ko tuwing pupunta sila sa kanya-kanyang trabaho. I realize that being alone in a toxic environment is better. I'd spend my time writing songs or poems. I also watch some series I promised to watch but never did.

Mas nauuna rin akong kumain tuwing dadating sina mama at papa. Mas gusto ko kasing sa kwarto lang tumambay pag nandiyan sila.

I was anticipating the last day of my suspension. I'm waiting for it. Gusto ko nang makausap ang mga kaibigan ko at makasama sila.

Most people would say that young ones nowadays don't know how to value their time with family. They prefer to be with their friends. Well I guess I'm part of that young ones now. No one can blame us if we grew up in a household where you are condemned if you're not perfect. You are judge if you fail and would be treated with indifference if you didn't meet the standards.

When I came back at school, I felt so free even if I'm still grounded. I don't have my phone with me and the company driver is task to bring me to school and fetch me after school.

"Mariya!" Fritzie welcomed me with the biggest warm hug when they saw me again. Clarisse hugs us both and not a moment later, the boys joined in for the group hug except for Lancelot who remained standing with a small smile on his face.

I smiled at them wanting so bad to let them know how glad I am seeing them again.

I don't know if Fritzie already know that, kuya Miller ran away but I think she still has no idea so I'd rather not talk about it for now.

"Tara na sa opisina ng headmistress. Reporting for duty na tayo." Dave salute to all of us. We were instructed to report to the headmistress for the final process before going to each of our class.

Mamaya pa naman ang unang klase ko ngunit sinadya kong maaga pumasok para makaalis na sa bahay.

We started walking through the office. Even Lancelot go with us. Hindi naman siya kasama sa naparusahan.

Abala na sa kwentuhan si Fritzie at King. Si Dave at Clarisse naman ay pinag uusapan ang bagong release na kanta ng paborito nilang banda. Ernest is on his phone playing mobile games while I'm silent here at the back.