The Missing Piece

Mariya

I breathed in deep like I was under water for so long. I was panting for air wanting so bad to breathe.

The sunset of the beach welcomed me when I woke up. Nagtataka kong natagpuan ang sariling nakatulog sa sarong na nakalatag sa buhangin. My head surprisingly isn't aching. Only my heart feels heavy.

Naupo ako habang nakaharap sa may dagat. The color soft orange painted the sky making it bearable for the naked eye.

The wind breeze swaying my hair as it whispers. The sound of the wave crashing through the shore sounds relaxing but my emotion is on its height.

I remember everything now. I remember the missing past. And my heart is aching so bad knowing that it's really my fault that we lost my brother.

"Kuya Miller." I whispered while tears freely fall from my eyes.

I didn't mind wiping it. I just keep mentioning my brother's name while tears never stop flowing.

I was pouring my heart out for the person I never knew that I lost. I didn't even grieve for his death because of the stupid coma and I can't even remember what happened to him because of my amnesia. Now that I remember him, I want to give myself the chance of doing it.

I want to blame myself. It's all my fault!

"Baby, there you are." A familiar voice from afar.

I stood up quickly only to see my brother standing right in front of me. He's finally here.

"Kuya Miller." He's in front of me. Looking dashing as always. His long hair almost touching his shoulders. He's wearing the clothes he was wearing the last time we were together which is still very fresh from the long flashback I had.

After recovering from being shock, I ran towards him and hug him tightly as I can.

"Kuya, I'm so sorry. Kuya it's all my fault. Sorry, I'm sorry. Please forgive me, kuya." Halos hindi ko na maintindihan ang sarili ko sa lakas ng hagulhol na tumatakas mula sa bibig ko.

It hurts so bad. Really bad that I don't want to see anyone. I just want to be with kuya and ask him for forgiveness my whole life.

I felt him hug me while caressing my back.

"It was never your fault. Don't blame yourself for something you did not even do. We are just victims of someone's carelessness." He console me while whispering words how much he missed me.

"Take me with you, kuya. Isama mo na ako. Ayokong maiwan." I heard him chuckled.

"You know why I push you away that night?" Napaangat ang tingin ko sa kanya.

"Why?"

"Because I want you to live. I still want you to grow and become whoever you want to be. I want you to have a great life ahead." He genuinely smiled at me while another tears fall from my eyes.

He wiped it using his thumb and slowly kissed my forehead.

"I never regret a single thing I did that night, Mariya. So please live your best life for me. Forgive those who deserve forgiveness and love the people who matters." Dahan dahan akong binitiwan ni kuya saka siya umatras ng isang hakbang.

"It's sad that I have to go, but please know that I'm still always here to protect you just like how I promise." Unti unting lumakad paalis si kuya.

I just remained there standing while seeing him going away. But this time, my heart felt lighter and happy knowing that he's happy. That he's at peace. I will never lose him because he's always with me. He's in my memories, he's a piece of my heart that went missing but now I finally found.