MORE THAN I EVER HOPED Book Two

Bella finds out about her past

                                Bpov

  The door open up and I saw Edward in the doorway. He walked over and sat next to me. "I don't know where to start. But I do know one thing that you mean everything to me Bella. Your scars they're only small things to me. It's who you are in here Bella." Edward place his hand over my heart.

 "It's what always what made me want to help you in the first place. You always were such a kind person, thoughtful and caring.
You are beautiful on the inside as much as you are on the outside.
I don't care about your past, well I do because I was a part of it, still am always will be. Because I want to be with you, I want to be the one to hold you in my arms every time you have a break down or a nightmare, be there when you need someone to talk the only way you know how. I'm sorry for hurting you Bella, but please next time come to me and tell me, not scare the crap out of me to where I'm in a panic."

  He turns and looks at me. He gently put his hand on the side of my face and wipes some of the tears away. "It's not going to be perfect I know that Bella but I want to be with you no matter what comes along with  it." I just look into his eyes with tears still falling. "Bella you're a part of me now and damn it, I love you. So please don't ever scare me like that again. He had tears falling from his eyes now. I shook my head no. I signed to him that I loved him to. I signed that I was sorry.

 He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close. "Please just let me in Bella. You been locked up inside for so long it’s time to let someone in. Just let me in please." I nodded into his chest and just cried. He was right. I had locked away and hid so much that I was really hurting him and everyone around me. I wanted to stop seeing the faces I saw every time I closed my eyes or I dreamed. I was so scared.

 I thought of myself as ugly because of my scars and what people and Charlie and Renee put in my head. The next day April made a suggestion for Edward to take me up north to just for a little while to be by my Aunt and Uncle. It would be just be me and Edward. He rented a cabin in the woods so we would have privacy.

  Everyone said it be best for me to get away from everything and heal. Rich went back home. We were leaving in two days. Edward was gone all day with his mom shopping for stuff for the cabin. Stuff like dishes and pots and pans. Bedding you know supplies you need for a place you live.

  Esme order the furniture and had it delivered. So we didn't have to worry about that. My Aunt and Uncle will have food in the place when we get there. Carlisle said he come up in a week to check on me and help me find a doctor up there so I'm comfortable. I told him I only wanted him. Well wrote him.

  He said we would see. The day came we were leaving everything was packed in my truck. I got in argument with Edward over my truck and he wanted his car. My sister backed me up, so I won the argument.
Edward carried me downstairs so I could say goodbye to everyone.

  We were also transferring our jobs temporary up north to. Our fire jobs were only going to be local in Michigan for 1 year. Because of what happen to me. I told Edward he could go without me, but he wouldn't have it. He said we were a team and we weren't breaking that up no matter what.

 I admit it made made happy. Carlisle sat down next to me first. He told me he made sure Edward had a enough bandages and supplies that he needed to clean my wound wear I got shot. He told me not to be stubborn and let Edward to do it or he gave him permission to sit on me and drug me in order to do it. It had to be pack and healed from the inside out. It hurt like hell to have it. The ankle was easy. I salute Carlisle and he smiled. I signed that I would miss him and that I loved him. He gave me a hug. Then it was Esme turn. She told me just to get better and I was like a daughter to her. She had tears in eyes. I told her she became like a mother along time ago. Well typed it to her. I hugged her and that's when I cried.