REBOUND : His Dirty Little Secret

Chapter 31 : Torn

Junkyu's POV:

   
      I don't know if it's a blessing in disguise. But part of me was relieved the delivery came before I totally gave in to Ruto. After he fetch the food at the door, I locked myself in the bathroom. Even with the strongest sprayed of water poured upon me, the tightness of his grip on my waist remained. The taste of his mouth on mine still made me dizzy, and the electrifying touch of his palm on my neck to my chest still burned against the water. And the frightening realization dawned on me, I'm still defenseless against him. My body still craved for him.

      But my mind brought back the image of him on top of a girl. Which made my eye sting again despite being close and feeling the cold drops of water. My eyes began to burn. Tears now joined with the flow of water washing my body. Because I knew myself that his mistakes hurt me physically and emotionally but knowing I made some reckless decisions in coping with my pain, that I'm now torn between my longing for him and my guilt for letting myself fell in love with another man.

    I sat on the edge of the tub, burying my face with myhands in a sob. It hurts so bad, especially  knowing I need to fight this alone. Another pain hit me when the face of Hangyeom enter my mind. I think I'm going to loose my mind!

    "Aaaaaaahhhh!!" I cried my heart out hoping the pain would go away.

Haruto's POV  :

     I just place the food on the table when I heard a loud cry from Junkyu's room. I immediately run to him incase he hurt himself in shower.

     "Junkyu-ya!! Kwenchana?"
His bathroom door was locked and I could hear the shower still on. I knocked harder in case he couldn't hear me.

     "Uuhuhuh......uhh...!" I stuck my head flat on the door, trying to confirm that muffled sound of groan or something painful.

     I decided to get the master key from the kitchen drawer to open it myself.  As I opened the bathroom, I saw him crouched down on the floor leaning on the side of the tub. He was sobbing, head buried between his arms hugging his knees.

     I went down on the floor to wrap him with the towel I got on the rack.

     "Kwenchana?  Are you hurt anywhere?" I was inspecting his body of any bruise or wound that cause his pain. But then none. And it dawned on me that 'he was crying because...of me?' That gave a jab to my chest. 'Did I cause him to hurt like this? Is my kiss causing him pain?'

     H-hyung...... I-I'm sorry......" blaming myself for not being able to control my hormones earlier. I'm now worried if I blew my chances of redeeming myself.

    He lifted his head and looked at me with his swollen face caused by crying. He looked so much in pain and struggling that it added to the weight on my chest.

      By instinct, my hand held his face to wipe his tears. I can't bear looking at him like this. If my presence will only harm him more, I'd rather hurt myself than watching him suffer.

     "I'm sorry hyung... is my presence too painful for you? Do you want me to switch place with anyone from the other dorm? Please....stop crying now. You will soon have another migraine if you keep crying."  I didn't notice my eyes were blurry now too, feeling some wet liquid sliding my own cheeks.

      'Just tell me hyung.... how can I stop your pain. I'll do anything.... just please stop hurting" I just looked down  while still holding the towel on his arms to keep it wrapped around him. I held my sob on my arm to avoid showing him my tears.

     "R-Rutoya..... I'm s-sorry.... you don't have to blame yourself. T-the past is done now. I forgave you already." He said between hiccups.

    " You've hurt me deeply. That I thought I couldn't get out from the pain. B-But I did....w-what pains me now is ..... I know you wanted me back, cause I heard you almost every night in Jeju. A-and with the kiss earlier too."  He hid his eyes from me.