REBOUND : His Dirty Little Secret

Chapter 38 : Breakaway

Ever since they left Hangyeom's house, Junkyu kept his silence until they reached his place. Right after their last concert and group schedule, the group dispersed from their dorms too. Mostly the Korean members just got back to their own places, while the Japanese can stay at the dorm until their flights.

Of course, those who have their respective pairs, like Ruto and Asahi, left and moved in with them before they fly back to Japan.

Ruto is set to fly in the next couple days. Blessing in disguise or probably intentional, Ruto took it as an advantage to tell Kyu everything just a day or two before they will fly to Japan. As much as he's hoping against hope, no matter what Kyu decides, he can prolong it for awhile if he's not in Korea anymore. Worse comes to worst, Kyu would probably wanted to make it in person, if and when he decides to breakup. And that would mean, a couple of months tops, or longer. Only until he could fly and visit Korea and if Kyu is off duty from the military.

Distance will be his ally. Giving Kyu the chance to think clearly being apart from both men in his life. Seeing Hangyeom can be a game changer. So Haruto thought his sudden absence and his plan in action will also give a certain impact to Kyu. Atleast it will give Ruto's absence enough weight in Kyu's decision.

Junkyu's POV:

Shock was an understatement of what I felt seeing Hangyeom on that state. It's like seeing another person, not the energetic and playful guy who loves to tease me and push me to come out and have fun. The guy who never run out of stamina and appetite, especially in bed 😳.

Whom I saw was lifeless shell of himself. No more light on his eyes, as he look at me when he spoke. His words are like stones, so heavy and hard to my chest. I felt guilty. For those times he suffered while I was having the time of my life.

I knew he's trying to drive me away. Making an excuse for closure. But for the months we spent together, it may be shorter than what I had with Ruto, but the depth of emotions and intimacy we shared, was beyond compare.

Maybe because of how he came to my life. I was stripped naked to my soul, walls down and vulnerable due to the pain caused by Ruto, that when he found me, he saw my all. All flaws and needing for saving.

Our relationship might not be good or ideal for most, he might have started as my rebound, but he was the on who patched me up to the man I am now.

I may have been keeping it from my group and friends about it, but my nightmares of Ruto's infidelity had slowly been non disturbing for me. I might have moments of lapses when brought to present topics, but the intensity of pain is almost non existent. It's now like a memory of the past.

Do I trust Ruto again? Mmmmm, let's just say, I trust myself more now. Whatever I decide and engage myself into, may be love or work, I believe I can handle it maturely.

So if Hangyeom will drive me away, he's into a difficult fight. Cause I have decided to knock him to his senses. It's not that I won't have closure, it's the decision to save him from his despair this time. My love for him never left. As much as my love for Ruto stayed despite all the pains I went through. I just found the love I needed the most. It's when I fully accepted and love myself more above all else. Since Hangyeom needs me now, no matter how he denies it. I'm gonna stay by his side, even not as a lover but as a friend just like when he stayed by my side during my dark times.

I still have a few weeks before I finally enlist, or I could ask for an extension even just a few months before my birthday. Ruto is scheduled to leave already in a few days. Even before I knew about Hangyeom hyung, I already set my mind to set Ruto free.