REBOUND : His Dirty Little Secret

Chapter 18: Chasing Nights in Seoul

Junkyu's POV :

We are currently in my apartment just lounging around the coach watching random shows on TV. Hangyeom suggested to alternately spend nights in our respective houses since the last time I spent almost a week with him, my house smelled like garbage. I got scolded by Jihoon when he stopped by and interrogated me regarding my Ducati. As if he didn't got excited himself.

Hangyeom and I kind of unofficially official together. Does that even makes sense? I know we agreed that he would wait for me to heal, at the same time, I am drowned by his over the top way of pampering me. how did I get so lucky to meet him, huh? What if I chose to ignore his advances that night at the party? I bet I would have been the biggest loser and depressed person on earth by now, or worst dead.

Hangyeom is so easy to fall in love with. I can even foresee myself already being in love with him. Though a lot of people would say, if you are in a kind of rebound relationship, one loses the ability to differentiate the intensity of your feelings towards the rebound and the intensity of your longing to your recently lost love. The sudden transfer of affection carries the same intensity as when you dive in to the new one, thus confusing the person to really identify love between the two. One, the pain of losing the person you love, and the other one, craving to continue the feeling of being in love and seeking the affection you lost to the new one. That kept me grounded for now, knowing soon I would be face to face with my recent heartache.

Ruto might have expressed his intention of winning me back, but I'm afraid the moment I see him in person, the image of him fucking that bitch was imprinted permanently in my mind. And that would mean, the possibility of breaking down again for the nth time.

I might be escaping at the moment. Indulging in Hangyeom's arms, being drowned by too much pleasure, which is honestly making me addicted. Temporary or not, there's nothing more I would love to be than here. He makes me feel things I never thought I would feel again.

"And now for Entertainment News Section, this headline will break a lot of hearts, both in Korea and the world.

Breaking New! YGEntertainment and YGEX of Japan simultaneously released a statement regarding the controversial photo involving one of their Top Artist, Watanabe Haruto, one of the main rapper of TREASURE, and model/actor known for various blockbuster hits both in music, fashion and movies.

It was reported last July 29, this year, a certain photo was seen posted in Instagram by a Japanese model and aspiring actress, Moniko Nanami on her personal Instagram account. The picture showed 2 naked couple in a very compromising position in bed during an on-going intimate activity. The picture was clearly taken from the girl's perspective as it focused on the face of the said Rapper.

Though it was soon taken down after several hours, but the speed of shares and recaptured version of the photo was beyond the company's control.

It took a week before the agencies of both parties to came up with the statement, confirming the two artists are really dating.-"

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Hangyeom put off the screen in front of me. I didn't realize, I was trembling and crying silently. He must have felt the tremors of my muscles since he tightened his hug around me. We were cuddling on the sofa when the News broke. Actually, we anticipated it already. When Hyunsuk and Jihoon Came here the other day, they gave us a heads up what to expect. Last Monday was the contract signing between the girl's agency and YGEX, but the release of the article will be expected within the week. And it did.

No matter how prepared I am, the pain still hit me, with the same intensity. I thought I took the steps further into healing, but why do I feel like going backwards twice the steps I took moving forward. I tightened my grip on Hangyeom's arms. I felt like he would disappear from me if I loosen my grip. Hearing the news brought back all the nightmares I had during those 1 month of his silent torture towards me. Spending my nights alone on my bed without him, missing him, his scent, his touch... the tingles of his breath on my ears together with his unique smell of his breath on my face. How many night I ached for him so damn much, and there was nothing I could do. I usually get my daily dose of my survival pill from missing him when he calls or we facetime every evening. When the moment we lessen the night calls and facetime, that's when I slowly losing my sleep. Haruto ruined me, big time.