His little naughty girl // Yn Morningstar

Chapter 6: Explain everything

Skip when the Christmas holidays ended and all the students go back to Hogwarts. I wasn't ready to meet with Mattheo after what had happen between us. I guess I own him an explanation. I don't want to remember but he deserves an explanation.

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I arrive at the Platform 9 ³/4. I see Mattheo in a cabin. It was the only that wasn't full. He sees me and looks sad. I open the door.

"Do you share the cabin with someone else?".

"No. You can come".

"Thanks".

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Mattheo's POV

I see Yn standing out of my cabin. It was awkward. She opens the door.

"Do you share the cabin with someone else?" she asks me.

"No. You can come" I answer back.

"Thanks".

I softly smile at her and after turn my face back to sad/mad.

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Yn's POV

I see him looking down sad/mad and I know that it is all my mistake. He takes one of his cigarettes and I look outside.

"Do you want one?".

"Thanks".

I take one and he gives me fire. I stare outside for a few minutes till my cigarette ended.

"Mattheo?".

"Yeah?".

"Are you ... Are you angry at me?" I turn and look at him.

He didn't answer and I sigh.

"No. It was my mistake that all these happened".

"I wanted to say sorry. I didn't want to react like that or say something from all these".

"You didn't say anything wrong Yn. I said a lot that I regretted. Sorry".

"It's ok".

"But ... Can you ... Can you tell me why did you flinch?".

I look at him.

"Have I show you that I would hurt you that much? I mean I didn't do a move if I remember correctly that ... I didn't try to slap you or something. If I am wrong tell me that but I think I'm saying truths. Right?".

"You know Mattheo the night that we argued and you started yell memories ... Memories from my ex came to my mind".

"Your ex?" I can say that I pissed him. "Why your ex?".

"My ex because ... Because he was like that. He was yelling at me, used me ... Hurted me physically and mentally. He ... When you yelled at me and started getting closer to me I thought that you would hit me or something like that. I wasn't always like that. I wasn't like that. I was ... I was more sensitive and I cared for the others even if you don't believe that".

"Yn I-"

"Let me finish".

He nods.

"When I got in a relationship with this man that did all of these to me I hadn't the courage to tell my father. When I told him and he killed my ex I ... I changed at all. I started torturing people, killing and hurt everyone around me thinking that they will hurt me. Even if I didn't know someone I would hurt him because of my past. I never told anyone about it. I thought ... I thought that whoever will learn about it will use it against me and I still think like that. Maybe you do maybe you don't but I wanted to explain to you that you did nothing wrong. Whatever you told me were truths that just hurted me. Truths. Truths that I didn't want to hear. I always thought that I am a monster because of how I was. Because of my father, the situation with my mother, my dead sister. My whole past. I ... I am sorry that I left like that that night Mattheo. You did nothing wrong".