𝕀'𝕝𝕝 𝕓𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕤𝕠𝕟 | 𝕓𝕒𝕟𝕘 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕟 (𝕖𝕟𝕘)

𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟙𝟛

𝐊.𝐒.

"You can't sleep here again!?" Chan said with a concerned undertone as he watched me make myself comfortable on the sofa.

"I can, I don't want to sleep alone" I replied with a grin. "You won't be alone, mom is still there too" Chan replied.

I swallowed hard when I remembered Chan's mother, she was actually the main reason I stayed in the hospital.

"That doesn't count" I replied and turned away from Chan. "Good night" I mumbled before I closed my eyes. I heard Chan wish me good night too, and then silence.

I did not want to give my thoughts the attack, which is why I concentrated on sleeping and fell asleep not long afterwards.

I opened my eyes and lied in the middle of a field, confused I sat up just to see the cemetery where mom is lying.

Confused, I got up and looked around, after a while I decided to move to mom's grave. When I got there I saw the grave dug and the coffin empty.

Shocked, I looked into the coffin only to see the chain in it which I gave mom, I turned around to meet mom's boss who grinned greedily at me.

"Now you are alone, what can I do with you?" he licked his lips and I ran away in panic, out of the cemetery.

As I walked through the bars I was suddenly in the bathroom of my old apartment, confused I looked in the mirror to see my old self with long hair.

I looked down and saw blood flowing down my arm, panicked, I grabbed towels from a shelf and wiped off the blood to see the cuts on my upper arm.

With even more panic, I threw the towels on the floor and left the bathroom to end up at school. Confused, I looked down at my arm which was bleeding even more than before.

In panic I was looking for a bathroom, before I got there I was stopped. Somebody grabbed my shoulder from behind and threw me back again, I fell to the ground.

I looked up to see Chan in front of me, he was grinning widely and reached out to wrap his hand around my neck.

I widened my eyes to find myself back in the hospital, I was breathing heavily as I must have been holding my breath. I was breathing heavily and sat up, looking at Chan's bed, which was covered with a sleeping Chan.

I sighed heavily, reassured, and looked down at my arm. I pulled up the sleeve of my sweater and looked at my old cuts and followed them with a finger.

I stopped cutting a long time ago, I noticed after a long time that it no longer helped me. The thought occurred to me every now and then to start over again, yet it has not appeared in any nightmare so far.

I think it's a sign that I'm stressed, I got up and went to the bathroom. I wiped my face with cold water and looked in the mirror. I will probably no longer be able to sleep.

I moved back to the sofa and looked at my phone to see that I had 2 hours before my alarm clock goes off. I decided not to bother Chan, so I'm going to pack everything and go outside.

Outside I sat on a bench and watched the sunrise.

~

"Chan wrote us that he will be released tomorrow" Han grinned as he reached my seat in our classroom. I nodded and enjoyed the good news with them.

Our joy was interrupted by someone in class hearing our words "Chan is leaving tomorrow?! Really?!" the three of us looked at him confused and ignored him again.