Teacher's Aid (Zayn Malik Fanfic)

Chapter 64.

It didn't dawn on me what I had said until four hours and thirty two minutes later.

And when I realized what I said, i almost had a panic attack, went to Finn who helped me with no questions asked.

Then I went back into my room and cried for an hour.

Knowing Finn he was probably trying to figure out what set me off and made me had a panic attack but I told him a had a boyfriend, and he is going to ask who it is and if he can meet him! I can't just say, oh you've already met him, in fact, you are friends with him! I've been dating Zayn behind your back!

And I haven't even told Zayn that I'm ready to tell my family about us, I was going to tell him this morning but then we got into that fight and I didn't have a chance.

I'm secure enough in our relationship to know that my family won't break us apart.

No matter what happens, I know that me and Zayn will be okay, we have to be.

I know my family won't exactly be all happy about it, especially at the fact that I've been hiding it from them for eight months. I know that they aren't going to hug us and congratulate us and wish us the best.

I know that most of all they will be dissapointed, dissapointed in me hiding it from them, dissapointed in me for dating a older man, they will probably think I'm sleeping with him to get a higher grade in art.

But none of that is true, I love Zayn and he makes me happy, he makes me feel secure and when I look at him I know what I want. When he touches me like holding my hand, or wrapping his arm around me, or even just when our skin brushes against each other, I love the feeling I get.

The one thing I'm really scared about is how my brother's will react, will they yell? At me? At Zayn? At both of us? Will they be silent? Will they ignore us?

I was tempted to text Zayn, to call him to apologize, but I know he's mad at me, dissapointed in me, and I knew I should give him time to calm down.

I know his art room is like a sacred place to him. Just for him, his own little place where he can do whatever the hell he wants. I don't know why I tried to break in there. He's just such an amazing artist, and I wanted to see more, I didn't think.

What really hurt is what he said about Perrie, it had been running through my friend for the past four hours.

"No one has been in that room, no one has seen that room. Not even Perrie! And we were fucking engaged! At least she respected that I wouldn't show it to her! She sure as hell was a better girlfriend than you are!"

She sure as hell was a better girlfriend than you are!

Was I really a bad girlfriend? How can I become a better girlfriend?

Should I bring him food more often? Should I buy him little gifts more often? Do I not tell him I love him enought? Should I compliment him more?

I wonder what Perrie did and how she treated him that made her such an amazing girlfriend.

Maybe I could talk to her? But how?

The twins are friends with her, aren't they? Maybe I could get her number and text her and ask to meet up.

Zayn deserves the best and I want to give him that, so maybe Perrie can help.

Yeah, that seems like a good idea. Maybe I'll do that!

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