Strawberry Fields Forever

Chapter 4

I decided to leave Johns house early, without waking him, i needed to go home and get ready for school, and more importantly see if my dads ok.
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When i got home my dad was up getting ready for work, i had told him that he was gone for a while so i slept over at a mates house as he didnt remember anything that happened last night. When my dad left to go to work i went and got ready for school.
I remember what happened with John yesterday, i need to forget about it, it was late, a lot of stuff had happened that night he was just trying to comfort me and anyway i know john doesnt like me in that kind of way, i pushed the thoughts out of my mind and left to catch the bus

Johns pov
I walked to the bus stop, Alex was there, she was about to say hi to me but i just ignored her and walked past.
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In maths Alex came and sat next to me, my mate stu started to laugh.
"What you doing?" I said to her
She looked confused "what?"
"Why are you sitting next to me?"
"I er-" she stuttered, the class began to laugh.
"Go sit somewhere else, freak"
Alex stared at me with tears in her eyes, it hurt me to see her like that but i didnt want stu to think i was having a thing for her, she stood up and as she walked over to a empty table people called her horrible names, and it was all my fault. I watched her, tears ran down her cheeks but she quickly wiped them away.
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Alex's pov
It was lunch, as i walked through the canteen Johns friends started shouting things at me, the boy who was laughing at me in maths shouted "aww gonna go tell ur mummy? Oh wait.. You dont have one!" People started laughing, how did he know? I looked at John he wasnt laughing, he was sat there staring at his feet. It was him, John had told them, he was the only one who knew. I tried not to cry, i had done too much of that recently, instead i ran out of the canteen and to the girls toilets.
I sat in a cubical crying until i heard someone come in, i instantly shut up. It was two girls talking.
"Well guess what John said to me? that shes been coming on to him" one said
They laughed and the other girl replied "what a freak, shes got no chance with John, he wouldnt shag her, not even if he was payed"
They then left, and i broke down again. I unlocked the cubical, walked out and looked in the mirror, mascara was all down my face, i dudnt care, i just wanted to go home.
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I didnt go to last lesson, i was scared, embarrased and hurt. What happened to the John i was with last night, the one who comforted me, kissed me, made me feel loved... Where was that John?
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When i got home i walked straight upstairs to the bathroom and locked the door. My dad was at work, i was alone.. Like usual, like i always have been. I thought of everything from today, i thought of John why was he doing this to me, i thought we were at least friends but i guess not. I was too lost in my thoughts that i didn't realise that i was crying. I looked through my make up bag, and eventually found my blade. I was shaking as i put it to my wrist. I remembered John...
"Promise me you wont do it again"
"I promise"
I slid it against my wrist, making blood instantly run down my wrist...
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Authors note- Sad chapter :(( thank you for reading, votes and comments are appreciated :)