Strawberry Fields Forever

Chapter 14

No.
I can't be pregnant, this isn't right. I don't know what to do... I'm only 15 i cant look after a child, Johns busy with the band, he doesn't have time for a baby. John had gone out with Stu somewhere. He didn't tell me where but he said it was a lads day out, so obviously i didn't go with them. i paced around our bedroom crying, the thought of having a baby growing inside me was horrible.
I heard a knock on the door so i quickly wiped my tears and rushed downstairs to get the door thinking it was John.
As i opened the door i saw Paul stood there smiling.
"Paul?"
"John there?"
"No he's gone out with Stu somewhere" i said quietly
Paul nodded "you alright?" He asked me
"Yeah why wouldn't i be" i said holding back tears
"You look like you've been crying"
A tear slipped out but i instantly wiped it away
"I'm fine"
Paul just let himself in and shut the door
"Whats happened? Is it your dad? Or John? Did he do something to you?"
I shook my head, tears were falling down my face but i didn't bother to wipe them away
"Then whats happened" he said and took my hand, leading me to the sofa in the living room.
"I- i can't" i stuttered
Pauls pov
What was so bad that she couldn't tell me? What was so bad that she was in tears and constantly squeezing my hands?
"Please tell me Alex, i want to help you"
"Y-you cant tell J-John! please d-don't tell him Paul!" She begged, i wiped her tears thats kept falling down her pretty face
"I wont i promise"
"I-I'm p-pregnant"
I was speechless, was it someone else's baby? was that why she was so upset?
"Is it Johns?"
"Of course it is, who do you think i am"
I'm an idiot for asking that. Of course it was his, she was faithful to John, not some slut who slept around with other men.
"Why are you so upset about it then"
"Because i don't want a baby, and either does John he has to focus on the band"
She was right there, he didn't necessarily not want a baby, he just wasn't ready for one at the moment.
"He's gonna find out about the baby sooner or later"
She shook her head "I'm getting rid of it"
I frowned not knowing what to say, she continued
"I know its a selfish thing to do but I'm thinking about me and John, were both not ready for a child"
"But-" she interrupted me
"My mind is made Paul, I'm going tomorrow. your welcome to come with me if you want, i guess i wouldn't be as nervous but whatever you choose to do please don't tell John, i trust you Paul"
"We have band practice tomorrow I'm sorry Alex"
She took a deep breath "thats okay, i can go on my own"
"Please rethink this through"
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Alexs pov
Me and John were sat in the living room watching tv together, his arm was wrapped round me and my head was resting against his chest.
"Are you alright love?" John asked unexpectedly
"Of course i am, why wouldn't i be?"
"I dunno, you just seem a bit off an all"
"I'm fine, so what did you and Stu get up to today" i asked changing the subject
"You know just kinda guy stuff"
I got worried, John was being awfully blunt with me
"What kind of guy stuff?"
"Oh erm nothing like that, we errr... Went to the music shop so Stu could get a new bass" John smiled
"Oh okay" i said
I didn't believe him, they've been out all day, and last time i saw Stu's bass it looked perfectly fine to me, he bloody treasured the thing... why would he need a new one.
I guess were both hiding something from each other...
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I woke up feeling extremely sick, i rushed to the bathroom and leaned over the toilet, throwing up.
I felt someone hold my hair out the way of my face and rubbed my back softly.
When i had stopped throwing up i flushed the toilet and clutched onto my stomach as i turned around to see John.
He hugged me gently "love?-"
"Its just a stomach bug"
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I sat in bed watching John get ready, he kissed my cheek
"I've got to go love, i'll see you after band practice. ring up Paul's number if your feeling worse"
I said goodbye to him and waited till he had gone before getting ready to leave myself. i left the house and walked to the doctors.
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"How can i help you" the receptionist asked
"I'd like to book an appointment for an abortion"
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I walked back home, holding my appointment card tightly, i was due in later on today at 2:30.
I looked at the time it was only 10:25am so i decided to get some sleep for a bit. i put my appointment card on the bedside table and fell asleep.
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When i awoke it was 2:05pm i quickly got ready and nervously left
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Johns pov
Me and Paul arrived back at mine at 2:15, there was no sign of Alex.
Paul had been acting really strange today as well, what is it with everyone recently?
I went up to our room to see if she was still in bed, she wasn't. i noticed a small piece of card on the bedside table, i went over and picked it up it was a doctors appointment for 2:30
I walked downstairs
"Paul?"
"Yeah"
"Did you make a doctors appointment"
"No that must be for Alex shes getting an abor- err i mean check up"
"shes what!"
"She told me she was pregnant yesterday and that shes getting an abortion because she doesn't think your ready to start a family" Paul spilled
Leaving Paul, I ran out of the house and made my way to the doctors, tears started filling my eyes
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Authors update- thank youuu for reading, i hope this was okay. thank you to ilovethe60sand70s for helping me again!
Votes and comments appreciated :)