Strawberry Fields Forever

Chapter 9

Pauls pov
I was at John's house, he had just rang Alex but he told me that she was busy so couldn't speak at the minute.
"John do you think Alex is okay?" I asked
"You want me to be honest" he replied
I nodded.
He sighed before saying "no i don't think shes okay, she lives with an abusive father, who has clearly gotten worse... I- i dont know what to do anymore Paul, whenever i try speaking to her she just blanks me out, like I'm not even there"
"Im worried about her, she seems so secretive about everything. You know what John maybe she doesn't speak to you anymore because you were a total asshole to her..."
"What are you on about, i helped her when she got fuckin beat up by her dad, i let her stay at my house and then the next day she fuckin' ignores me" John raised his voice getting slightly angry
"Yeah but you weren't like that at school, you were the one to ignore her and embarrasses her in front of everyone else-"
John interrupted me "ugh just shut the fuck up Paul! You don't know shit about her!"
"I know probably more than you!"
"Yeah really?! So you know that she cuts herself yeah?!" John blurted out and instantly put his hand over his mouth.
"...Your just kidding right?"
John shook his head and sighed "shit i didn't mean to say that"
"W-why does she-"
"I don't know Paul! Its a different reason each time, probably because of what her dad does to her but i know that one time was because of me, that time at school when i proper bullied her"
"See your a fuckin asshole!" I got up and stormed out of Johns room
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Alexs pov
I got up and got ready for school, i walked into the bathroom, looking in the mirror, my black eye was a lot more visible. i took my makeup out of my bag and managed to cover it up slightly. I walked downstairs ready to leave.
"Alex! Can you come here!" My dad shouted from the living room, i walked in slowly, he was drinking a beer.
"Yes dad" i said
"I forbid you to see that lad" he said obviously talking about Paul
"But dad-"
"You know what will happen if i see you with him again"
I nodded and walked out, leaving to go to school.
While i was walking to school i heard someone shout my name, i turned around and saw John run up to me.
"You seen Paul?" He asked, out of breath, i shook my head
"Woah what happened to your eye"
"Nothing" i said turning away from him, i carried on walking to school but he decided to walk with me.
"was it your dad" he asked quietly
I ignored him
"Alex?"
"John please leave me alone"
"Why? I haven't done anything wrong"
"I'm not supposed to speak to you, please"
"Why not"
"I'm not allowed"
"W-what do you mean?"
"Fuckin hell John, my dad said im not. Just leave me alone" i walked away from him.
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When i got to school, Paul walked straight up to me.
"Hey- what happened to your eye?" He said concerned
"You know me, I'm an idiot. i walked into a door last night" i lied "anyway i cant walk home with you today" i said
"Why not? Im probably off to Johns after school anyway"
"Erm... i have to go somewhere after school"
I don't think Paul believed me as all he said was "oh... okay"
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It was break and i was avoiding Paul as much as possible. i had told him that i was going to the toilet and would meet him in the canteen but instead i decided to go to strawberry fields. It hurt me, lying to Paul but i need to do it, if my dad found out that I'm still hanging around will him i will be so dead.
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"Thought i might find you here" i heard John say, i didn't say anything back.
"Why'd you not go meet Paul in the canteen then?"
"John please my dad-"
"He doesn't know your here Alex, he won't see us, why aren't you allowed to speak to me anymore" John was being strangely nice to me, seems I've just been ignoring him for like 2 weeks.
"My dad found out that i stayed at yours and he thought you were my boyfriend" i saw John smirk, "but i told him you were just my friend but he wouldn't believe me, so he said I'm not allowed to speak to you anymore"
"Did he like...h- hit you"
I nodded, tears were in my eyes. for fuck sake why do i always have to cry in front of John!
"He says i can't even speak to Paul anymore" i said while tears fell down my cheeks.
"What? Why not"
"Because my dad saw him kiss me yesterday after school"
"Er...Thats why he did that to you" he said pointing at my eye, i nodded.
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Johns pov
I wanted to wipe away her tears but i didn't want to hurt her or make her feel awkward.
"Please don't cry" i said
She wiped away her tears and giggled "oh god that seems to be something I'm good at huh?"
Her sleeve kept moving up slightly every time she moved her arms, i could see cuts, a lot of them. I just wanted to hug her and tell her I'm always gonna be here for her... but i don't want to promise something that i wont be able to keep.
"Im gonna go back to lunch" she said and stood up "you coming?"
"Nah I'll meet you in lesson later"
"Alright bye" she waved and started walking
"See ya"
So Paul kissed her did he? He knows i like Alex. The bastard
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When i got to school i saw Paul walking to his lesson on his own, 15 minutes late, clearly he had been for a fag.
I ran up to him
"Alright John? Been for a fag as well?" Paul laughed
"Why'd you kiss Alex" i said angrily.
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Authors note: crap chapter, yes i know :/ but anyway thank you for reading :p votes and comments are appreciated :))