𝟯 𝘿𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙊𝙛 𝙃𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙞𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙨 || xiao x reader

"Lovers out to get groceries" (3)

So I Sold off all my life span leaving only 3 months, Then the next day a boy came into my room.
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Many people who sold off their time and lifespan become desperate to feel life to the fullest so they start causing trouble to people and even committing many crimes and to prevent this we have observers to observe how your actions.

well what if I cause a trouble what will happen? you ask the boy

then the observer will immediately contact the HQ and have your life taken on the spot.

You shiver as you remember what the boy explained to you, and so this so called observer can basically end my life with one phone call..

You glance at xiao who was currently leaning on a wall staring onto your soul with a blank emotionless face, your eyes meet making you look away quickly.

You know you can pretend I don't exist and just go on with your normal life.
You hear xiao say
as if I could do that, you replied to him.

I explained this yesterday that an observation is necessary so please endure it until then tho I will leave you alone once you reach the last 3 days of your lifespan.

When people have a few days left, they apparently go insane and cause trouble for others huh..
3 days.. for 3 days I can be alone given the freedom to do anything
A

After some time I found myself sleeping only to wake up at 7:27 pm at night
well isn't this an awful start to my precious 3 months left.

I glance at xiao again trying to avoid his gaze as I wash my face "don't mind him" don't mind him I keep thinking to me myself
I shower and got dressed up of course in the bathroom where he couldn't see me.

Walking outside I go to the nearest vending machine with xiao on my trail, I look at him for a moment thinking if he needs some food or any humans necessities
I use to think that he wouldn't be needing any of those but he just felt so human that It wouldn't be surprising if he did needed those

I gave him a water bottle but he just took it without saying a word, going back to my apartment I take a notebook and start writing stuff I wanna do before I die

Things to do before I die:
see beautiful sights
talk to my old friends
eat some tasty things
telling albedo how I feel

"I suggest not doing that one" Xiao says as he pointed towards telling albedo how I feel

"Tell me xiao, do you observers have any duty to prone into these kind of stuff" you ask him
he was silence for a while

"Mr albedo, barely remembers you at all.. that includes the promise you two made to each other at a festival when you two were 11 years old."
You were stunned for a bit realizing even he knows about that

Sighing "guess you even know about that huh, well given the way you're talking I'm assuming you know everything that's gonna happen in my life?"

"No, all I know are possibilities of what will happen to your future life." Xiao replied to you

"Of course it's all meaningless information as your life changed drastically as you sold your lifespan,
Mr albedo seemed to be a very important part of your life as everything revolves around him making everything you do unimportant compared to him"

You stay silent just listening quietly to his words
"At any rate if you want my opinion
meeting Mr albedo would only be a waste of time and will only ruin your memories of him"

"Thanks for the concern but it was already ruined a long time ago" you replied to him

"Look maybe you're saying all of this to protect me but couldn't you say it's just taking away my will to experience the despairs and hardships in life, even if those things were bad it would still count as experiencing life to it's fullest
"what if I say I didn't wanna hear those directly out your mouth but out of albedo's mouth?"

Xiao sighed "is that so well I must apologize then I only had good intentions" he said before moving again into the corner

"I will now refrain from meddling into your freedom to get hurt and to feel despair, do as you please as long as you don't cause trouble for others I will not stop you."

at that time I didn't overlook at the fact that Xiao seemed to have a sadden look during the whole night however I didn't give it any deep thought into what that expression could have meant.

"Just making a call I'll be right back" I say to xiao as I look at my phone
Knowing I only have very little time I suddenly yearned for human interaction and so I remember that one time in college when I first changed towns
during at that time I meet someone named Hu tao

"Ugh move it lady.." I say to a girl who seemed to wear gothic clothing

"Um excuse me but have we met each other before?" the lady said to me

"No I don't think we have." You say to the girl
"Oh is that so hehe, well I just thought I saw you one time in bookstore"

"You look very similar to a ghost I saw a few days ago.." the girl commented
I was a bit creeped out but I just ignored that remark
"Well my name is hu tao! and here's a coupon discount, feel free to contact me if you feel like me if you feel like you're gonna meet your end soon
and also heres a card"
She says before handing me her business card and a funeral discount coupon

Thinking back now I should have her plan my funeral, and so after that we had few lunches together and long conversations about theories, musics and fashion

"I've never meet someone in my generation who had read more books than me" she says

[funfact hu tao is actually a poet meaning she must have read a lot of stuff during her lifetime I think]

" i read sure but that's all there is to it, and besides reading is just something people do if they have nothing else to do" you replied to her

"Well you do not have anything else to do y/n?"

"other than part time job there's nothing really.."

"well I'll give you something to do" the girl says excitingly as she grabs my phone typing her email and contact info

actually hu tao was the only girl in school that has paid any attention but during that time I prioritize my promise with albedo causing me to treat her rather coldly.

I tried to call but that failed so I tried to sent her a message but it turns out that email was fake or I have been blocked

"ah.." I say disappointingly but I wasn't surprised either

"Now then that woman you just tried to call, let's try to compare what were expecting when you contacted her."
you hear xiao say as he slowly approached you

"That woman you just tried to contact,
I'm assuming in your point of view she was your last ray of hope and the last person to have loved you at least."

I stayed silently..
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I lit a cigarette as I sit on a bench not wanting to go inside yet, after that I go inside a store tryna shop for some food to eat.

I remember that I have about 300k yen, as I pick up all the stuff I wanna eat I ask xiao what food he would like as I finally learned he does need food

He quietly picked out a tofu package putting it on the basket
we silently walk beside each other shopping

"we must look like a couple right now.." I thought to myself

"and lovers out to get groceries"
this situation was just a ridiculous illusion of happiness but still I couldn't deny that I didn't enjoy shopping with xiao

Even if it was his goal was too watch over for a long time now it was my desire to live a boy, go shopping with them and go to random places with them.

it was really an empty happiness but I couldn't help but feel happy even it was a shallow one.