"I'll keep watch of you from now on."
Xiao x reader with slight albedo x reader elements.
This story takes place in the modern times
Art thumbnail credits: @szxjart
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(Heavily based of Jumyou wo Kaitotte Moratta. Ichinen ni Tsuki, Ichiman...
"Hey, wanna drink with me" you ask xiao holding a bottle of cold beer "No thank you I'm on duty right now." He says while writing on a notebook
"You know I've been wondering, what are you writing on your notebook?" you ask as you were curious why xiao always seemed to write something on his notebook when it's nightime or when you guys are about to sleep
"A record of your actions." Xiao replied "Well allow me to inform you that I'm drunk right now" Xiao only nodded before looking at you "yes I can see that."
"Not only that but I've been wanting to drink with you"
"yes I know I have heard."
You gulp your bottle of beer before slamming it onto the desk "Well let me tell you, in this 3 months and with 300,000 I'm gonna change something."
"With death on my tail, might as well get back at life!" you say loudly while laughing
"well this is what everyone says but you know despite being a hopeless person before now that you've realize your mistakes you think you can now do anything."
"Mr/Ms L/n, think of it this way you had such a low estimate due to you not having achieved anything in your 30 years of life."
"What can a mere person who would accomplish nothing in 30 years, change in 3 months?"
You stay silent for a while "won't know unless we try"
"three months is simply too short of a time to change anything but.. it's also too long to do nothing so then won't you agree that you should achieve a small yet a meaningful happiniess during this time?"
"Ugh fine, what you're saying is right.. I guess even now I can't fully understand just now useless I am."
"So hey could you tell me all the things that could've have happened, just how did I spend those last 30 years maybe if I heard how I could stop having unreasonable expectations about myself."
Xiao stayed silent for a while.. "I suppose, perhaps it is best that you know it however just to remind you just do not feel hopeless about the time I will tell you since it is only a possibility."
"I know that, there's really no reason, I should feel hopeless I'd only ever come to that if there was nothing else to do."
"well I just hope it won't come at all." first of all.. ____________________________________
your time in college passes in a blink of an eye, you can barely pay bills and only read books, listen to music and sleep.
You graduate having learned nothing, and ironically you end in a job you hated the most when you were a child.
You travel between home and work working your body to dust, and drinking is the only thing you ever look forward too.
before you know it, you're approaching your late thirties.
in loneliness your only hobby is to ride around your motorcycle mindlessly, but it was a dangerous hobby and you know it yourself.
one day you found yourself in an accident the only one small mercy is that you were the only one injured, in that accident you lost half of your face the ability to walk and the majority of your fingers.
you begin to consider to your last resort but you keep thinking "even so maybe something good will still happen." unable to let go of that small slither of hope you considered to not commit suicide yet
This false hope carried you until you were 50 years old until ultimately you die alone in shambles and having nothing.
Loved by no one remembered by no one to your last grieving thinking it things shouldn't have been this way ____________________________ ... So your thoughts?
You sigh deeply "right well.. I'm so glad I sold off all 30 years" as you said those words a firework has gone off
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Xiao immediately stood up to look at the view he opened the window to watch the fireworks
Guess fireworks interest xiao a little..
"Hey Mr observer should you really be watching that right now, what if I were to take off right now what then?"
"do you want me to watch you?" You blush a little before chuckling
"Nuh uh I want you to be gone as soon as possible, having you over my shoulder makes it hard to do anything."
"heck I think it might have been better if I were to see all of my lifespan"
"well there is still time for that, you are allowed two more transaction if you truly can stomach my presence than that is certainly an opinion."
"I'll keep that in mind.."
Well there's still 3 months to live and as Xiao said your life can still change for the better, keeping that in mind I can't go and die yet.
Time pass and I was staring at my ceiling rather than sleeping I suddenly smelt something good and there was also a sound of the shower being used
Guess xiao showers when I'm sleeping huh.. i kinda wanna see him shirtless I thought to myself I slap myself getting rid of that thinking "ugh what am I doing I should be sleeping right now."
The shower stops as Xiao goes out dressed in his usual clothing getting ready to sleep during that time I also notice that he sleeps sitting in the corner but I just ignore it as I doze of in my own dream world.. -------------------------------------------
"How do you plan to spend your day today?"
I stay silent as I observe xiao as he gives me a confused look, when I first saw him I thought he didn't look half bad well to be honest on appearance he was exactly my type.
if my observer were the opposite of him an ugly dirty middle aged man I'm sure I think I'll able to feel more calm and at ease but having a handsome boy like him around me everyday i can't feel but feel embarrassed due to how pathetic and miserable my life is.
Xiao looks over at what you had wrote on your notebook "This is just my opinion but are you sure those stuff are what your heart truly desires?"
"Well I was thinking about that too."
"Those stuff you have wrote seems like what you feel other people could have also wrote."
"Maybe but the truth is I don't really have anything I want to die before I die"
"Still don't you think theres still some stuff you might want to do?"
"there's a chance.. I guess _____________________________________
I need to be more honest and truthful about my desires
I look over my notebook as I thought to myself "what's worth repairing at this point.. I'm sure there's nothing to lose by doing this one"
Some time pass and I see myself holding my phone while looking at a rainbow "You should get a good look at it, it might be a last rainbow you'll ever see."
"Well yeah, anything might be for a last time.. how many books could I have read before I died how many shows could I watch?" I thought to myself
I sit in a restaurant as I found myself waiting for an old friend
