Repeater Diaries - NEET

Introduction

Hey there! 

 I am Nays from India .Just a random girl on a random day. I am 18 years old and prepping for my undergrad right now. A little something about myself -

 I am......

ummm .....

 you know what - 

It is my first time writing anything on an international platform and I don't even know how should I introduce myself to someone complete stranger , who might be sitting on their couch or bed or PC station whatsoever - and somehow managed to find my page reading this.

Interestingly enough , I don't think that anyone would be reading this and also I am not doing this to improve my skills or to explore my creative writings or something . I just wanted to express myself and share my emotions . I am an aspiring doctor and I completed my high school this year in august 2021. I gave the entrance examination , i qualified it as well but in order to get oneself a decent college here in India ,you need to score way past that and clearly I didn't manage to score that much in my first attempt. It is very common for NEET aspirants to take a year drop or two in order to get into a well reputed university , and same is the situation all over the world I guess. Excuse my language , but getting into a well reputed university might seem all good at first sight but this shi- is seriously messed up . You'll have to work your ass off , study for like at least 9-10 hours a day. wow. But I guess it'll be worth it at the end. 

So as for my introduction , I think that since i am sharing something academic here, I should start with my academic qualifications (or traits I guess) . I was an average scorer in my primary school i.e.- till grade 5th. After that , I saw remarkable improvements in myself and was constantly among the top 3 students till I completed my high school. Only once did I slip to 5th position in my school in my sophomore year but rest , I have been a pretty great student . Some of you might be thinking that how come I remember all these details till now ,is it that important to me, my position? Like literally , who'll even remember this ? so the answer to this question is - YES. It is that of a big deal to me. It always had been and will be , I guess. It is all good if you're taking all this in a healthy way . But as for me , I am a turbulent person and somehow I manage to turn everything positive or healthy into a toxic competition. Like do or die situation.

 If you know what I mean . 

I am also good at giving speeches ,writing stories ( that's why I came here at first place ). I have a blue belt in karate , have completed seven level abacus program and a self taught intermediate pianist . I love exploring new things (as long as they're not physical lol) and do creative experiments. Maybe not now , but sometime in near future , I also wish to make some international quality friends .

The reason why I am starting to basically journal everything about my gap year is to let people know about my biggest failure till now. Everyone loves talking about their success and some people even brag about it , you know. Empty vessels make noise . Periodt.  I might not be able to continue writing this or simply vanish , but I'll try my best to be consistent and journal every 15 days(one of the reasons you'll find me writing like entire essays lol)

 Amidst the process , I'll also describe some of my riveting experiences here.

As for my personality , you'll eventually figure out throughout the entry. 

An interesting fact though I have a type of personality which is second rarest in the world, like 2.2%. lol *

Signing off 

Nays

7th November 2021.

*You can take this personality test at www.16personalities.com . It is pretty accurate though , not  like any other random quiz on google. It doesn't declare anything about your personality as a fact , they talk in the terms of percentage , which I feel is actually great because no one in this world is  a 100 % of a particular subject.