Repeater Diaries - NEET

January 15th , 2022.

Dear Diary ,

It's been almost half a month since I've been told you what is up in my life. 

Let us start from the very beginning, shall we ?

It is finally 2022. My new year was not good at all . The Omicron Variant , being highly contagious as it is , infected all the members of my family. Strange thing. We did not go out to hangout and celebrate or have a posh nosh, instead all we had was very simple meal and this huge tray , filled with med supplies including paracetamols , antibiotics , zinc supplements , Vitamin C supplements , antihistamines and ... aage ka I do not remember. We all had mild symptoms ,nothing serious, ranging from my father being asymptomatic to my brother having high fever ( we feared that it may turn out even worse , since , you know , covid .) Now everyone's okay. Honestly , It has ben a week or two since we recovered , but I did not feel like I ever contracted it. Everything's normal, I mean there was so much hype about it ,now that I have recovered , I still do fear about it but it was mostly like flu . I thought it would turn worse because I had high risk patients in my family - Father being asthmatic ( he did had chest congestion afterwards)and my Grandma being a hypertension patient. Anyways

All is well that ends well.

I was diagnosed with first degree hemorrhoids on December 25th 2021. I did suspect before I got the actual diagnosis from the doc itself. Di, incase you're wondering what is hemorrhoids , it is protrusion of anal veins out of anus on inflammation by hard faeces ( constipation , the cause being mostly.)To my utter amazement , I never had any kind of pain or bleeding or symptom regarding it . I was advised to eat more roughage and cut on junk food . I rarely ate outside before covid and during covid, it was a strict no-no. But I did develop this terrible habit of eating sweets and cookies whenever I came across it, even if I did feel full. Never had I thought that it would result not only in weight gain ,but THIS. I do not have severe hemorrhoids , but.this.sucks.

I have to soak in a warm bath for 10-15 minutes , twice a day and apply an anti-hemorrhoidal cream in the affected area along with a proper diet , as I told you earlier.

Di , I tried on my level for several times past 2 years to control my diet , but my tongue and brain were never in coordination . And , finally , the diagnosis , for what I felt , was the final call. I woke up . I usually took resolutions like every other person till 2021 but was not in the condition this year . I always promised myself to live and most importantly , SUSTAIN a healthy lifestyle . This year , it came into action . And also , I had no other option left with me. 

Sometimes , I think , Okay nays . Now this is what you have become . Unless you feel that you're compelled to do something , you don't . Happy 18 , you bitchhh.

Ahh this self hatred never ends . 

I thought it would be very difficult for me to get into routine ,or the hardest part would be waking up early but to my amazement but did I ever sleep past 4:30 Di. For me , it is now becoming difficult to wake up , but somehow I manage to push through it. Now that I have only about 5 months in my hand before the actual exam , I planned for at least an 8 hour study schedule . 

I do not have any kind of fixed time table for the actual study( which I need to have ASAP ) but I have fixed my sleep and wake time along with a necessary 1 hour workout. So far , it is going well. Sometimes I just feel lazy and do not exercise  in the mornings ( the reason being , I wake up REALLYY early , around 4:50 , early for me thoughh ) but I never miss it . I brisk walk for about an hour in the morning and half in the evening. ( roughly about 11,000-12,000 steps a day , although I have set my app target at 6000 steps )

I have started to see the results as well. I have lost 2.2 kgs in about 14 days and actually developing interest in studies ( I was rigid as a stone that one's time table and eating habits can't affect their overall concentration , but once I have started following it , I can REALLY SEE the changes . The positive changes .) The only drawback I am facing is that my body is still adapting to this 6 hour sleeping time but soon enough I am sure that it'll adapt to it . 

I also have my Spanish lessons and play piano in session breaks ( for 30 to 40 minutes ) still I waste a lot of time . I have to increase m study time from 8 to at least 10 in next month . One should not study according to the clock but it motivates me when I see for how much time  I studied for a day ( I do record the time - increased my productivity more than 3 times )

I have to eat loads of roughage and be within the calorie count.

I have to eat this jumbo ( not seeming jumbo enough in the photo , but actually is really big) orange at least 4-5 pieces in a day . Lots of fibers and 🥤 . 

Funfact - I realized today that my skin health has started to improve since I changed my routine. Orange being a significant part of it , I suppose. 

As for study , It really gets all hectic and messy .

One morning , (9/1/22). Was too tired to clear up before sleep. 

loads and loads of sheets and practice to do in a single day. 

Precaution

Ek din ka backlog bhi jaanleva hoskta hai. lolxx( magar firrbhi hai T_T ) 

( saala kabhi kaam hi complete hi nahi rehta T_T )

( *ucking procratinator Nays T_T)

Once I told this old friend of mine , Saima , over text about my routine . She was like , " how do you manage to do all this ? I am so jealous of youu." ( all of this being writing , learning a new language , piano , study and exersicing , ig )

That really felt good . hahahaha

Behen aise hi comments pe ham zinda hain . And fake Scenarios .lol

Bed time . 

See you later Di

Signing off

Nays.

( I did not write my entry in proper sequence , as I planned today. I am really sleepy . ttyl <3)