Dearest Diary,
I am afraid that i.. um.. won't be able to write much about last couple of days because I believe that they were not really that much productive lol. I t is not that I have once again got back to my old lazy ass schedule and everything but I thought I might need to reward myself now and I got a little carried away with it . If you know you know :)
There is one more thing I would like to talk about in particular that is my fucked up sleeping and eating schedule. I have always struggled with my weight growing up since I was in my primary school. I will mention about that later on.
The reason why did not but I want to mention about it is I have taken a kind-of-pledge that no matter how much i lie to myself , I will be completely truthful to you. And I really want to work on myself and I want to be that bad bitch for going to college and everything.
Okaay may be not that bad bitch . XD
So the point is that I have gained some weight in the lockdown which has pushed me from having a normal BMI to being overweight. And I want my older self back. But above all the things I am afraid that it's not going to happen due to my procrastinating ass. I don't want to make false commitments over here. I am sick of over eating every single day and the most concerning thing out of all is I am not doing any kind of physical activity which can seriously harm me in long run considering my family health history . Still I somehow manage to find an escape sometimes in the form of an excuse or any event I need to attend .
I need to get myself completely and positively on the track back again. Now I have even started to feel the consequences of being inactive and having a terrible routine , be it as small as a pimple or big as gaining almost 7 kgs of weight in past 6 months.
I need to work on it. More accurately, work on me . I will try . No I will. Ugh . I cannot promise since I have to study . NOOOO I should work on it. I am again giving myself an escape.
UKW
I will discuss about this in my next entry.
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(so sick of me I am)
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TTYL
Signing off
Naysa M.
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