re-living

N I N E T E E N

nicks pov

my mom ends the phone call, with nothing to say to me. i know she must be disappointed, but not nearly as much as i am.

my body freezes when i hear loud stomps outside of my door, almost as if someone is running. i job to the door & look at the peep hole & see someone dash down the hallway.

my heart drops...it's carry.

i pull the door open so hard i thought i pulled it off the hinges.

"carry!!" i shout.

i dart after her & chase her all the way outside of the apartment complex. out of breath i find her running down the alley.

her cries are so loud i can hear them from here, which breaks my heart into a million pieces; i never wanted to hurt her like this, but my stupidity took over.

"carry! carry, please! can we talk?" i scream.

she stops running. my breathing is so heavy i. i catch up to her & tighten my grip around her wrists as i stop jogging outside.

"what're you doing, nick?" she asks with a confused tone.

my heart starts to race, "carry,"

"yeah?" she says, nervously.

i can't find the words to say but my body takes over, and i crash my lips onto hers.

i pull away, out of breath & the need of explanation.

"carry, i'm so sorry. this looks awful! & trust me, i never in a million years would break your heart. i'd let you break mine before i broke yours!" i say.

shes looking at me directly in the eye.

"you are the love of my life. i've never seen anyone more beautiful & caring. you mean the absolute world to me! i have to explain what happened.." i say.

she nods slowly, tears hanging on the brim of her ocean colored eyes.

"can we come inside & talk about it? i promise to only give you the full truth...& if you still don't trust me, than i understand why you'd leave me. just know that you mean more to me than anyone else." i rant.

"okay, let's go talk," carry's voice breaks...& so does my heart.

i intertwine my fingers with hers & we slowly walk into the apartment & up to the room.

A/N: happy thanksgiving guys! i'm so thankful for those of you that enjoy & continue to read my stories. much love & be safe out there! <3