my story

chapter 4

Dear journal

so I been talking to my friend and he recently told me he self harms and I never knew. I felt bad but I told him I've experienced it first hand because I walked in on my sister and she cut herself.
tbh I stopped her from doing that to her and I wanna stop him but I dont know if he is going to listen. he probably will because I have all these things that I've done to stop so many people. I really need to pull my act together to keep my friends together.

anyways on the my love life. my "babe" admitted that he liked me but he doesn't know what it feels like so its okay. I'm waiting for him only because he is the only one I want and the only one I love. besides he's always been there for me and also annoy each other so much we never get tired of it. the other day else were talking on the phone and my dad walked it and told me this "you better not sleep with headphones one because if something happens the you won't hear it!"
I said "okay, yup, okay, okay dad."
then he said "when you sleep you die!"
he heard it and we died omg . I kept getting g yelled at it was so funny. my "babe" and I have such a weird friendship/relationship it already feels like we are going out. tbh semi is 2 months away and I really want to go with him, but should I ask or should he? because I really really want to go with him because he is the love of my life, and the only boy I cried after we broke up because I knew he was the one and that he is perfect for me.

sincerely Jessica S.
written March 29, 2015