5SOS IMAGINES

deep breaths - michael (bf)

once again, you're sitting on your bed fresh from the shower, finishing off some uni assignments due at the end of this week and you hear you father yelling. not at you, not at anyone in your family, but on the phone.

you've never been good with yelling, especially when it's your dad. he's not very tall but he still seems to be intimidating.

you immediately feel your heart start beating faster, your body starts to tense and you can hear your mother in the other room tell him to be quiet, but it makes no difference.

you reach for your phone and airpods, connecting them and playing music full volume to block out his harsh tone and vulgar language.

mikey <3
he's yelling again :(
21:17

im sorry baby girl :(
you okay? you want
me to call you?
21:17

please <3
read: 21:18

incoming facetime call from [ mikey <3 ]

you pick up straight away and are met with michaels face, a light smile on his face.

"hey babygirl." he blows you a little kiss.

this isn't a new thing so your boyfriend is quite used to your late night calls where he has to calm you down.

"hey mikey." you blow a kiss back.

"how was your day, love? what's you get up to?" your conversation lasts for a while, him trying his hardest to distract you until your fathers yelling gets louder.

you freeze in the middle of your sentence and tears invade your eyes.

"mikey." you whimper. he knows exactly what's happening.

"oh, babygirl, it's okay. im right here. sh, you're okay." he tries to comfort you but you can't focus on anything other then the yelling in the next room.

"mikey, please."

"lovely, turn up your phone as loud as you can, play some music, it's okay, you're safe, im right here, just take some deep breathes for me, babygirl." his voice is calming and you will yourself to follow his instructions.

your hands are shaking as your head rests in them, you rock yourself back and forth to try and sooth your nerves.

"babygirl? hey, look at me, love?" he encourages and you lift your head to make eye contact. "you're okay, im right here." you nod your head at his words. "come one, copy me, deep breathe, in... out..." he repeats this pattern a couple times till your breathing slows to a normal rate.

your body hurts from how tense you were, and your head is pounding for how much you stressed yourself out.

"you okay, baby?"

"better now. thank you mikey." you blow him a little kiss.

"of course, my love. has he stopped?" you take out one earphone and don't hear any more yelling. you nod your head. "okay, that's good, i'm proud of you love."

you scoff at his words. why is he proud of his whiny girlfriend who cries to him  and had an anxiety attack every time her father yells on the phone? no idea.

"i'm pathetic, michael, why are you proud? i can't even handle yelling!"

"hey, hey, hey, don't put yourself down. im proud of you because i wasn't there and you calmed yourself down-"

"you wer-"

"no i wasn't. i'm on the phone, not holding your hand, not holding you, not kissing you. i'm on a screen and you calmed yourself down, im not taking credit for any of that." he finished his little rant with an soft smile on his face.

"thank you, mikey. i love you so much, baby." you smile at him.

"i love you too, my love."

"i wish you were here." the mood quickly switches. you can see his face fall and you immediately feel horrible for upsetting him.

"i miss you so much, sweetheart. we'll see each other soon. i was tryna keep this a secret but you need some good news." your eyes widen. "im coming this weekend, two days, well technically three cause i'm flying in early saturday morning for you."

your face lights up, your smile bigger than he has seen in a while and tears in your eyes.

"noo, baby, don't cry! i'm gonna cry too!"

"no, mikey, i'm so happy! i can't wait!"

"three days, love. then i can give you a big big cuddle."

"i can't wait, mikey, thank you so much." you reach your hand up to wipe your tears away. "im so excited!" the smile on your face makes him feel so much better, the way he can make you so happy makes him so happy.