Ok, this is how it will be last night I apparently eat crisps that had onion in them, I was reading last night when the pain in my stomach started I shouted out in pain, kat shouted back. "What's wrong ?" I told her my stomach hurt like hell cause of the onions so she started panicking asking how can I help so I told her I need my hot water bottle and pain killers guess what she said ... really I just got comfy so I lay in bed kicking my legs and turning from side to side trying to get comfy then I asked her to come through and see if I had a rash on my stomach she came throw and went no, so I asked her if it was swollen she said I can't tell then she started panicking again, she was going are you going to have an episode (she means when I pass out, my body shakes and sick comes out of my nose and mouth, this happens when I eat a lot of onions and don't know I eat them ) I told her I wasn't going to and she asked for me to promise so I said promise (even though I have no idea when it's going to happen) she went ok I'll help you tomorrow then climbed back into her bed and fell asleep! like what the hell !. I was up all night tossing and turning, kicking my leg because I was in pain and she slept. She came in the morning and asked how are you said sore and tired so she said to sleep in but it was already 12:45 pm so I lay for a bit then got up to get my meds, breakfast, a cup of tea and A hot water bottle. I got them no kat me. that was my night oh she isn't helping but wanted me to look after her the other day when she was in pain. I did for one day cause I just couldn't do it anymore.
She also wanted to open my mail cause it was from the NHS, it's not important so I will get it when I get up which I did
This happened not long ago kat started the car and let it turn (sometimes the car just doesn't start ok it happens a lot) so the car decided to lock itself and it wouldn't unlock so I told her to put the key in the lock and unlock it that way but it's on the passage side and not the driver side which worked but she comes in shouting at me so I went did it work she went yes but I had to open the driver's door from the passages and blah blah it was hard. ARE YOU KIDDING ME! IT WASN'T MY FAULT! I TOLD YOU WHAT TO DO AND IT BLOODY WORKED SO WHY ARE YOU SHOUTING AT ME LIKE IT WAS MY FAULT, IT'S YOUR FUCKING CAR I DON'T DRIVE IT EVEN THOUGH I CAN I DON'T SO STOP BLAMING ME FOR YOUR FUCKING SHIT AND GET OVER IT! THE CAR OPENED AND IT STARTED SO SHUT UP!. I'M COMING OFF MY OTHER NEW MEDS AND YOUR OWN MEDS AND HAS BEEN FOR MONTHS NOW BUT INSTEAD OF BEING CALM, SHE KEEPS BLAMING ME FOR EVERYTHING. She keeps making me mad cause she is mad. know she is chilli in the bath while I'm looking after the dogs and in pain.
I can't stay calm if she doesn't thanks for all the help (Not!) it's a load of fucking shit
Can't message my parents, I'm too much of a burden, they are suffering as well and making them worse as well so they say and other people say, no friends to talk too well beau is back but just came back and I've learnt no to reply on anyone cause no one will help you so do everything alone no one will help you but you.
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Bio for 2019 - 2023 (finished)
SonstigesThis is my new bio for 2019 and 2020 This is for this new year I might not write in it as much but yeah it's just for this year Read or don't read won't bother me It'll probably be just as boring as the rest so yeah
