Bio for 2019 - 2023 (finished)

Update On My Life

Alright so here is my update on my lame ass life. My best friend is in the hospital and I'm worried sick about him but I'm always worried about him. My social anxiety got worse so I was put on meds which I only started on Monday but of course it will make me worse for the next two weeks but hopefully after the two weeks of hell will all disappear and makes me a calmer me, HOPEFULLY being the key word. The meds are making me panicky and anxious a lot like yesterday my dad and sister kat was arguing like always and it went on a total melt down my anxiety went through the roof, it took me 3 hours to calm down then today I was cooking dinner and I started to get anxious so I told kat and all she did was said calm down like what the hell! how is that helping ? she didn't even say sit down, try to calm down and i'll look after the dinner no it was calm down then I told her I needed mum so she went up and got mum so my mum came down and said calm down then washed the chip pan then of course sat down so while i was in the kitchen trying to calm down and cook my family was in the sitting room watching TV then after nearly being done with cooking mum came through to help me finish up. I had to sit on the floor and take deep breaths then I nearly burnt the tatties but I just got them before the water ran completely out so that was close. I need my family to all be calm so I can be calm but this is my family we are talking about but Kat is under a lot of stress but I need her to me calm. What else hmm.. I'm buying up the cupboard stuff for mine and kat's house .. did I say we had a house I can't remember but here is it just in case I haven't told you about it so before the lock down, me and kat got offered a house in lochmaben a two bedroom house, in a small part of lochmaben there is only about a hand full of houses there so it should be quiet, we haven't seen the house but we did get the rent card through the post but we can't go any further, we can't go see, we can't sign the papers or anything just know but we have had a letter saying our house is safe no one will touch it so the house is sitting there waiting for us. Kat did say she didn't have a say in anything for the house but that's not true we are just getting cheep stuff so any colour will do but kat wanted a greeny/blue stuff for the bathroom but we got black, I didn't know she wanted greeny/blue stuff she told me she wanted it for the walls but that was sorted out, yesterday I told her if she had money to spend to get the light shade for the sitting room, she went we you'll have to come with me, I can't , I have to try go do my own shopping on Monday and the way my meds are making me feel the know it's not good idea pushing myself no much. Anyways I told kat I trusted her to pick a light shade well we both agreed on sliver all she needs to pick a style of it but we are hoping to get a light shade for the hall and yes there is a hall up and down stairs so I told her to pick that if she can afford it cause her work is close cause of the virus and she does work at a hotel and they aren't needed of course so it' been closed for 7 week and she is going crazy cause she is bored and she's always there so she is bugging me. Mum is the same, she is bored out of her mind but she did start the strip the bathroom walls, she got the paper for it and the paint but she isn't getting far with that cause she isn't sleeping right plus dad is nightshirt this week which doesn't help. alright I can't think of anything else to say so this is what's going on with me for know so yeah thanks for reading this .... Later !.