Fear & Desire ❤️‍🔥

The morning after

Eyes snapping open, you jumped out of bed, running to the bin in the corner of the room before throwing up. You instantly regretted going out last night and abusing substances considering the pain killers were still wearing off. The sound of yawning startled you as you spun back around and saw that someone was in your bed.

"Noah?" You called recalling some of last night.

"Mhmm morning" he mumbled blinking his eyes open.
He faced you and watched you as you looked down at your attire. Last nights dress and some back to front pyjama bottoms.

"We didn't, if that's what you were thinking" Noah said sitting up.

Relief flooded your system but it was soon replaced by confusion.

"I don't mean to be rude but if we didn't you know, why are you still here?" You asked sheepishly.

"Well I called you an Uber but you were really drunk so I walked you to your door and you asked me to come inside so I did and then there was a lot of crying and you nearly fell as you were walking to bed so I walked you in here and then you asked me to stay, so I did." He rambled.

"Well thank you Noah" you smiled slightly embarrassed.

"You also kept calling me Loki in the night and trying to hug me" he laughed causing you to try and take control of the conversation.

"Thank you, for everything, you're really nice Noah." You said walking towards your bathroom.

"You're just leaving me in here? I could be a killer" he yelled after you raising his hands as you walked out.

"I know you're not" you shouted back. What Noah didn't know was that now you were pretty much sober, you could clearly see all his fears and desires. He wasn't a killer, you had looked into the minds of killers before, Noah just really wanted a coffee and to make sure you were alright. He was also still thinking about the spider that was outside the building last night.

You quickly showered and threw some clothes on. Noah eventually knocked the bathroom door asking if he could make a coffee which you were expecting so had already left all the things out before showering. Exiting the bathroom, Noah approached you with two mugs.

"You can sit down" you chuckled leading him to the couch.

You and Noah sat for around an hour just talking. It was nice, nice to be normal. You knew that as soon as Noah left, it would be back to life. Back to finding Bucky, back to hating Loki.

"Bye y/n, and thanks for the night out" Noah said as you both stood at your door.

"Bye Noah and yes, you can have my phone number"you laughed reaching into his pocket and taking his phone out.

"Wait, how did you—"

"You'll never know" you grinned "you did me a huge favour last night, call me if you ever need me to return it."

Noah gave you a chaste kiss on the cheek before turning around.

As soon as Noah left, you felt a pit of doom in your stomach. You knew you'd have to go back to SHIELD HQ or the compound and either way you'd probably run into Loki and you couldn't do that. The pit felt like guilt. What did you have to feel guilty about? You were the one who was cheated on, kidnapped, lied to. Why did you feel so guilty? Perhaps it was the fact that Bucky had traded places with you and you had just watched Loki kill your dad and you apparently still didn't hate him. According to Noah, you were calling for him throughout the night and might even have said something stupid along the lines of love.

Around half an hour later, you got a call from Tony who assured you the team was doing their hardest to try and locate Bucky. He also said that Bruce advised you take it easy for the next few days meaning no going into 'work'. You huffed when Fury came on the phone knowing you'd still go in continuing the search for Bucky, but he said that security were told to not let you into any of the buildings. You had to rest.