Fear & Desire ❤️‍🔥

Reprimand

Loki spent the rest of the night at your apartment which wasn't long considering you left in the middle of the night to get Bucky so between that and the two rounds of sex, there wasn't much time left until sunup. You spent most of the night tossing and turning, evaluating your emotions. When you told Loki you hated him, you wanted to, you had to, but you couldn't and that's what you hated the most. You loved Loki. You loved him. According to Noah, you were even calling out for him that whole night. You vaguely remember telling him you loved Loki. The drunken words that fall carelessly from intoxicated lips are often the truth.

A notification sound on your phone caused you to turn away from the sleeping god and pick it up.

Steve🇺🇸🍑: COMPOUND NOW!

Yawning, you stretched as you leisurely got out of bed. The movement woke Loki who sat up to look at you as you made your way to the door.

"What's the matter?" He asked in a raspy morning voice making you want to just turn back and mount him.

"Steve wants us at work" you laughed before your eyes widened in alarm remembering exactly what had happened. "Ah shit."

"What is it y/n"

"We disobeyed teams orders, killed a guy and lost Bucky" you said turning around and frantically getting changed out of your pyjamas.

"He deserved it" Loki huffed standing up as well.
Turning towards him, your heart skipped a beat taking in how handsome he was. You wanted nothing more than to just strap him to the bed and ride him so hard that you'll have to take out car insurance. You wanted him to go down on you so mercilessly that he'd need armbands to prevent himself from completing drowning in your c—

"Y/N? Are you alright?" Loki asked breaking you from your thoughts.

Nodding, you smiled before walking to the bathroom to quickly brush your teeth and wash your face after awkwardly sitting on the toilet for what felt like a millennia emptying your bladder.

Once you were both ready, Loki teleported you both to the compound. Walking towards the briefing room, you were greeted by unimpressed faces and a smiling Thor who was looking at you and Loki entering with an excited expression.

"Morning" you coughed trying to break through the thick tension filled atmosphere.

Turning fully towards you as you sat down, Tony began to speak.

"So let me get this straight, you went on a suicide mission, managed to survive, saw Bucky and couldn't bring him back."

"How did you even know?" You asked generally confused whilst Loki replied with an exaggerated "eeexactlyyy."

"Not good enough" Tony stated turning around putting his back to you.

"Nothings ever good enough for you" you scoffed.

"NO Y/N!" He shouted turning back to face you as you jumped completely startled by his outburst. "What you did was irresponsible and careless. You've cost us the mission."

"Have care how you speak" Loki snarled stepping closer to Tony.

"Loki it's fine" you muttered stopping his movements with your arm.

"No y/n it's not" Loki said looking at you before turning to the rest of the group. "All she did was what you were all too cowardice to do" he spat "she tried to rescue her teammate."

"Boyfriend" Natasha corrected.

"No" Thor added defensively looking at Natasha causing her brows to furrow.

"You broke up?" She questioned looking towards you.
"Ages ago" Thor scoffed.

"But you were together just like two weeks ago"
"And now they're—"

"Thanks Thor" you said lowering your brows at Thor before looking at Natasha "now we're not"

"CAN EVERYONE JUST BE QUIET!" Tony snapped.

"Sorry" you mouthed as he carried on talking.

"Look, it's been confirmed that Bucky has been compromised. There isn't much we can do now."

"WHAT?! That's ridiculous, surely you're joking" you huffed.

"We can't focus all of our attention on assembling the avengers to save one man when there are other conflicts going on" Tony explained as you rolled your eyes in annoyance, crossing your arms.

"What is it you don't understand? Bucky is one of us we have to get him back plus he recognised me Tony, he would have killed me if he didn't but he let me go, that must count for something" you pleaded.

"You're just feeling guilty that he traded places with you" Tony said under his breath.

"I warned you" Loki growled unsheathing a dagger you didn't know he had and lunging at Tony.

Thor was quick to stop Loki's attack and you raised an eyebrow at him causing him to narrow his gaze at you, a gesture you returned. That constant recognition of each others thoughts came into action as Loki backed off.

"Tony, that was a step too far" you said standing up as recognition painted his his features and he reached out to apologise but was met by your back when you turned to exit.

Entering the kitchen, you rummaged through the fridge taking out a random mix of food before trying to shove it all between some bread. Walking in, Loki couldn't contain his smile as you furrowed your brows and slightly lowered your stance in concentration.

"Fucking Tony Stark" you mumbled cutting the mystery sandwich.

"You haven't done anything wrong" Loki assured handing you a plate.

"Then why do I feel so guilty?" You questioned placing the sandwich on the plate that was still in Loki's hands. "What Tony said was right, it's my fault."

"Y/N, come here" Loki smiled putting the plate down and holding his arms open. Walking towards him, you reached for the plate and picked up half of the sandwich. When you moved it towards your mouth, half of the insides fell onto the floor causing you to step back with a gasp.

"It's DEAD" you exasperated covering your mouth with your hand.

"Dead?" Loki asked.

"Look at it-it's dead and splattered on the dirty floor and I'm still hungry" you whined as your voice began to break "and I'm crying, I'm crying because of a silly sandwich" you laughed wiping your tears away whilst Loki observed you with a perplexed expression.

"Strange" he commented running a hand through his hair.