An Alluring Fire (High School Teen Series #2)

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Sometimes, they are passionate feelings that neither time nor reasons can't help. However, there are times that we cross the line without noticing it.

There was a story my mother once told me. It was all about two friends who were moths, one was cautious and the other one was reckless. They were on an adventure and along the way, in a dark and starry night sky, they saw a fire set up by humans.

The reckless one was allured by the flame and drawn by it but his cautious friend was persuading him not to go near the fire. However, the other reckless one insisted and his friend started to be curious then asked him why would he throw and risk himself, just to come near it.

The latter answered that it was delightful—the light emitted by the flame was too delightful not to throw himself.

His friend was frustrated already that he convinced him that the flame was a trap set by humans. And knowing that he might die because of it.

Now, the moth who was drawn by the flame faced him and he thought that his wisdom was needed to clear it to his friend saying that there is no beauty without pain and there is no result without risking.

And the cautious moth was struck by his words and in the end, both of them were allured by the fire. And all they knew that time... was worth it.

To comprehend, risking is always better than regretting. But in my situation, it doesn't apply to me. I can't take the risk because I know that there is a possibility that my confession will ruin our friendship right now.

It is much better to be his friend and admire him from afar. Like I've said, I am contented doing what I've been doing since the day I fell for him.

However, what I don't understand is, what are these feelings lingering in my heart? As if it tearing apart every time I see him looking at someone.

I should have expected this but I guess no one will ever avoid the depth of pain. Even I always say I'm fine with it but the truth is... liking him is complicated.

Sometimes, he confused me with his actions because for a moment it felt genuine. As if I was the girl he likes the most. Is there a time that he thinks about me also? My thoughts are surreal and beyond foolish. How can be someone like him think about me... being more than a friend to him?

"Ayan ka na naman. Napapaisip at napapatulala sa ere," sambit ng aking kaibigan na para bang alam na niya ang iniisip ko.

"H'wag mo na akong kutyain. Ako na 'yong dehado rito... 'tsaka ikaw rin naman, 'di ba?" Tinaasan ko siya ng isang kilay at matalim niya rin akong tinignan sa mata.

"Tikom mo na bibig mo. Libre namang tumahimik." May sarkistong tono sa pananalita niya na siyang dahilan para ngumisi ako

"Sabihin mo 'yan sa sarili mo! May pasabi ka pang may nagugustuhan ka sa STEM strand, eh sa kapatid ko lang pala 'yong bagsak ng puso mo!"

"Oo na nga! H'wag mo na ngang iulit 'tsaka totoong may gusto ako sa STEM."

Kumunot ang noo ko sa sinabi niya at agad nagtaka kung sino. Wala naman kasi siyang nabanggit na pangalan simula no'ng nagkuwento siya.

"Who is that guy? Kilala ko ba? Baka dahilan mo na naman 'yan."

"Totoo nga! Crush ko si Jashielle... at happy crush lang naman."

"Jashielle? Happy crush? You're not joking right?"

"Mukha ba akong nagbibiro? At ano bang meron sa happy crush?"

Tinarayan ko siya sa tanong niya at siya naman ay inis na napanguso.

"Wala naman... halatang wala kang pag-asa sa kanya."