Meant to Be

Chapter 1

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We had been here in Italy for two months.

Here I am in the terrace of one of the mansions owned by Ezio's family. I had a hard time adjusting here because it's very different from where I came from and I don't know that Ezio is very rich than God until I came here and he is quite a celebrity here. I absentmindedly rub the visible small bump on my stomach and closed my eyes. My relationship with Ezio completely changed since the fight. When there is an event like a Gala, I had to be in his arms, smiling like nothing is wrong in our marriage and when we are behind close doors in his house, I always went to my own bedroom and take a shower. I just need space from him and having my own bedroom is perfect but there is a niggling worm that says two months is enough. I shut down from him again. It is always what I do when there is a problem in our marriage. Maybe it's time to talk to him and sort our problem. Let him explain what really happened that night and give him a second chance. I sighed and continued to rub my belly.

"Hang on there, blueberry, Momma and Daddy will sort this shit out." I murmured.

I didn't know that I fell asleep and I felt someone lift me up. Too sleepy to open my eyes I snuggled closer and sleep again.

I heard a noise coming from my side and I realized it is an alarm clock. Last time I check, there's no alarm clock in my room. I ignored the noise and snuggled closer to a . . . chest? I opened my eyes and saw Ezio's bare chest with my hands on it, his arms around my waist, his other arm under my head and our legs tangled.

"Good Morning" he whispered in my ear and reached for the alarm clock to turn it off.

"How did I get here?" I asked back, untangling my legs from his but still lying in his arms. Honestly, I miss him being close to me. I think this is the oppurtunity to talk to him about Lila

"I saw you in the terrace sleeping then I carried you here in my bedroom." He whispered back.

"You can carry me in my own bed. It's only a few feet away from the terrace" I stood up until I felt dizzy. Ezio quickly went to my side and held me.

"You're three months pregnant and I want to be near with you everyday to know what's happening to you. I'm still your husband" Well he has a point.

"Can you grab me a glass of water?" I asked and finally giving in. There are perks of having a husband serving you only wearing boxers. I sat down on the edge of his bed and rubbed my temple.

He arrives not only with a glass of water but also with biscuits. Ezio sat down next to me and I start to eat the snack he gave me. I can feel him staring at me intentky and I try my best not to look in his deep eyes. I heard him sigh and said

"I want this marriage to work, Dan."

"You can start by telling me why Lila is in our house with you. I'm also shocked because I didn't any other car outside but only yours. As far as I know, Lila has a car." I said neutrally. I don't want to cry in front of him again. Crying is for weak people and I want to prove him that I am a strong woman.

I can feel his hesitation but tells me anyway.

"At that time, I know that you'll be home next week. I'm so stressed out because I know you're with me but I always feel that you are two states away from me. I tried my best to fix this problem but you keep on pushing me away. Few weeks before you left, I always go home without you in our house. I felt that I can't fix this problem anymore and you're the only one who can fix you. By the time you left, Lila sensed that something is wrong with me. She persuades me to . . . for one night. I can pretend that we don't have a problem and have sex with her. Finally, I accepted her offer and I drove her to our home. I took a shower to rethink again my decision. When I got out from the bathroom, Lila threw herself to me and kissed me. I . . . I gave in to her then the rest is when you caught us."

I stared out the window and processed the words of Ezio's story. I am contented because he told me the truth but why does my heart ache like it's being pierced by thorns?

"In other words, you need Lila to forget me that I am your wife. That I didn't exist." Those words came out harshly than I intended to be.

"Look -- " he didn't finish what he was saying and I cut him by my question.

"Did you have had sex with her?" I trying to hold my tears and keep my emotions intact.

"Yes." And that answer pushed the knife deep in my heart. Even though it hurts, I need him to answer some of my questions.

"When? I saw Lila was still wearing her pants when I caught both you." Please don't be the way I think it is. Please please please. . .

"The first time is the day you left for the business trip with Sheila." I've been away for four days and that is what Ezio is doing all those days? Tears started to leak in my eyes and I quickly wiped them away.

"Why can't you just divorce me? So I can be out of your life? And you can fuck Lila until both of you die?" I murmured. I don't want to be with him anymore. Forgiving him is impossible.

"I don't want to lose you, Dan. You're pregnant with my child and the thing between me and Lila is a mistake and I will try to fix this. Just hold on."

What a complete irony.

"You ask me to hold on but did held on for me? No. You chose to release me and hold on to Lila who promised you that she will make you forget that you have a wife who is trying to fix herself. Ezio, week before my business trip, I started to see a psychiatrist. I tried to fix not only myself but also this marriage." Tears were now flooding and Ezio tried to hold my face but I pushed his hands away from me.

"I don't need your comfort, Ezio. All I need is divorce. Divorce is better than pretending that I don't exist, right?" Ezio wince at my sarcastic remark. I stood up but Ezio held pulled me back to his chest, curled his arms around my waist and whispered:

"If I need to play dirty to prove to you that I still want us to survive in this marriage, I will do it. I will do anything to show you that I still want you to be my wife and you're the perfect woman for me. As I said earlier, I want us to work Dan."